Poetry...

Because I Woke Up

Because I Woke Up

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I realized the change in my surroundings 

Tears filled my eyes

Like a gunshot signaling the start of a race

My tears bolted down my cheeks

As if they were racing!

To see who could make it down my neck,

Then drizzle down collarbone first

Maybe they were nice tears

Hoping to ease some of the pain in my chest

 

I was bombarded with questions

"Are you okay?"

"Why are you crying?"

"Did you have a nightmare?"

 

All the time I wanted to yell,

To scream!

"Because I woke up!"

 

It seemed to go on forever

No one letting me speak

Slowly

Everyone quieted down

 

But as I was speaking

I realized

I was speaking to no one

 

I cried.

Hours on the outside

Years on the inside

Because I woke up

 

From you,

From a place where were together and in love

Where we were happy

Where everything was warm

 

I cried because I woke up to reality

A place where I'm alone 

Deserted

A place where you don't even speak to me anymore

Let alone love me!

 

A place where happiness is a myth

To a place so cold

That if my heart still existed

It would be frozen solid.

 

Just a block of ice in my chest

I guess not having a heart is better

Right?

 

For all these years the same questions were thrown 

Directly at me

But no one knows my answer

For when I speak

No one listens

But for all of you who are listening now

It is simply 

Because I woke up.

 

 

Copyright 2012 Rachel Cooke