getting lost in your love

deep in your love

who would of known that love could be this hard that are love would be down the drain in what felt like such a short time

i gave him everything, i tried my hardest to give him the strongest love i could

but i still feel like i did not try hard enough i still felt like i was not giving him enough i still felt like i was not giving him everything i could.

i tried to convince my self that it was my fault it made me feel better just to know that it was not your fault but deep down i knew that it was all your fault i knew that everything i did was gone because of you and now im broken hearted and i know that everything you did with me is now with my best friend Dong-yul.

i have now learned to never be this in love

i was just sitting on my couch minding my own business while i got a random Instagram follower now i am not the person to just get an Instagram follower because I have like no followers and i follow like....no one so i was pretty surprised. so i went to unlock my phone so i could check who randomly just followed me and it was a gut named jin so i was pretty suprised that he followed me and he even started messaging me so i decided to say hi

jin-whats up

me-um nothing

jin- so uh do you wanna hang out

me-i dont even know you sorry but know my parents have taught me better they did not teach me to get kidnapped by a complete stranger im not this dumb please do not contact me again

jin-sorry i did not mean to make you feel scared

i instantly blocked him i really was not in the mood for being kidnapped

but that was exactly when i realized that

OMG THAT WAS JIN FROM BTS WHAT HAVE I JUST DONE I NEED OT UNBLOCK HIM OMG I AM SO DUN DUN DUN DUN DUN DUN DUN DUN DUN DUN DUN DUN DUN DUN IM SO DUN

and thats also when i realized that i have been listening to, to much kpop

which is absolutely no suprise to me

when i blocked him i Instagram i instantly unblocked him and messaged him saying im sorry i had a bad day

and then said that i wold like to hang out with him

at the coffee shop

hi i said to jin

he said hey and then invited me into his car because he said that it was to crowded in the coffee shop so i said ok

and then that was when he took off his disguise and thats also when i realized that i should have listened to myself when i thought that jin was a kidnapper

i screamed and screamed although he was not letting me out of that car so there was only one logical thing to do use my phone i curled up to the side and dialed a random persons number and asked for help

and thats when jin stood in front of the car and the guy stopped driving and i ran out of the car and to jin in tears

i told him i need help he is trying to kidnap me jin ran me to his car and then i told him my address to get to home and he said were not going home were going to get food cause im hungry i laughed and said i would not mind food either so we went to the closest restaurant and went to eat i got the Korean brq and he got the same and we both got a coke we really enjoyed that. sadly it all came to an end and he drove me home and we did in fact catch each others phone numbers.

The next day i heard a text from him telling me that we should go see a movie and i said sorry i have to much to do although i really just needed to sleep i was extremely tired and really wanted to go to sleep so thats what i did. about 5 hours later i had 3 missed calls one was from jin the other was from jin and the other was also from jin

i was very happy that he had called me so i called him back asking what he had called for

he said he really wanted to see me so i said i am not doing anything so i can meet up with you

where do you wanna go i asked

he said what about to go get a drink together and i said i dont drink because i have been taught well and he said in a funny voice. "are you trying to say that i was not taught well"

of course not i said in a sarcastic voice as then i was laughing i could tell that he did not mind that i said that at all he was laughing to.

when i was on my way there he said that he was on the way to pick me up

and that is when my ex boyfriend busted through my door i screamed and he yelled and said he loved me to much to loose me i started crying and he said i dont love her as much as i ever love you please dont leave me please piggy and then jin walked through the door and ran to me and told him to leave right now he said WHO IS HE and i yelled hes my friend and then i screamed GET OUT OF MY HOUSE he said no i will not until he leaves then jin picked me up and ran me to his car and my ex boyfriend ran out screaming GET BACK HERE PIGGY I LOVE YOU T TO MUCH TO LEAVE YOU and i said NO YOU LOVE HER YOU JUST WANT ME CAUSE IM WITH HIM YOU ARE USING ME YOU HAVE BROKE ME AND TORN ME AND I CAN NOT BE BROKEN HEARTED EVER AGAIN ESPECIALLY WITH YOU

and jin drove off when we got to the restaurant i apologized one thousand times to jin and he said its ok a thousand times

and then he stood up and said i have only known you for two day but i think i have fallen in love with you and i promise not to break your heart i quickly said yes and jumped into his arms and

its been 5 years and we have one child and my ex is in jail for trying to hert jin very badly and we are the happiest people we have ever been oh and my best friend ha she is in jail with him for trying to hert my ex because he still loves me.

but other that we are the happiest people we can be and we love each other very much