The Lost Years

6 Months Later

Caitlin's POV

It's been six months since Barry woke up from his coma and fifteen months since Ronnie died. Although, ever since Barry showed up back in my life, those six months that he's been around have made me and my kids happier. Josh is playing games with him that he used to play with only Ronnie. I feel like it's almost as if he feels a connection with Barry, since they have a physical connection. They're blood. From the moment Josh met Barry he's been attached to him, always asking about when they were gonna see him or if something was wrong he'd want to talk to Barry about it. Sometimes I feel like they both just know deep down about the truth. Every day that I work with him all I wanna do is tell him the truth but I feel that he's gonna hate me for it and I just got him back in my life and Josh already lost Ronnie I can't let him lose Barry either. Especially after finding out what he's choosing to do now. A couple weeks after Barry woke up, when we were trying to do some research on his cells to discover what was wrong, all of a sudden Barry just disappeared then reappeared seconds later. We discovered that his cells were regenerating and moving so fast that it made it so that he could move faster than anyone before. Because of this he wants to run around the city to try and save people. At first I was against it because I didn't want to see someone else that I care about get hurt or die, but then after seeing all the good he does as well as our team, we decided to be Team Flash, while he lead the team as The Flash.

Now it's been five months since we've started up Team Flash. We've helped so many people and Barry's loving being around. I loved being apart of this team, we've all gotten along so well, my kids ended up coming to STAR Labs everyday all the time whenever they didn't have to be somewhere else. Josh has been staying in school and since we don't have too much to do while being at work, I've been bringing Melanie to STAR Labs everyday and someone was always with her. Hopping between me, Cisco, Barry and her toys. We made a room strictly for the kids so when we're all too busy with work then we can set the two of them in the room and they're secure. To bring me out of my thoughts a whoosh came into the room.

"Hey Cait." And I turned around towards him.

"Hey Bar. Where's Josh and Melanie?"

"Oh, Joe wanted to take them for ice cream, so then we didn't have to worry about them when we have a meta on our hands."

"What can you guys spot when a meta is coming now?" I joke.

"No, he also wanted to hangout with them because he likes kids."

"I mean who wouldn't."

"I agree. Especially with your kids, they're so adorable. I don't know how you can stay away from them for so long."

"It was an adjustment, but I knew that as they got older they'd be more independent and I didn't want to be that mother that hovered over them every second of their lives."

"Well you're an amazing mother Cait. They're really lucky to have you as a mother though." After hearing him tell me this I couldn't take it anymore. I started to cry. "Hey, hey. What's wrong? Why the tears?" He asked pulling me into a hug.

"I'm not. I'm not the amazing mother you think I am." He looked at me in shock.

"Are you kidding me Cait? You give them everything they deserve, you show them kindness, love. Everything. What else do they need?"

"Truth" I whispered. He looked at me confused. "I've been lying. Ronnie's not Josh's dad." I waited for his response but he still looked at me confused. "I didn't even know Ronnie when I got pregnant and I was so scared about everything going on..." I took a deep breath before I answered. "You're ..Josh's father." Once I said those words I cried even more and Barry's face paled.