Purple Moon

thrown away

What was I supposed to do? Crying made it hurt more, knowing my own parents didnt want me. I was really just a burden till the day i left. Really i was sent away but if i lied to myself enough I began to believe it was of my choice and not thiers. I felt the anger in me rise again and fall as I thought about my brother. Would I ever see him again? Most likely not. I decieded to block it all out and not even think about them.

As I sat in his car knowing i was nothing to him either, other than an alliance for his parents, I tried not to look at him as he drove. He is so tall and dark. He has the most crystal blue eyes i have ever seen. Hair is sandy and wavy. Still kept short and clean but almost wind blown. I could see his muscles in his shirt. He made no effort to hide his body that was clear. I continue to practically drewl over the sight of him next to me. As i move my eyes up his torso I quickly come to the realization that he has pulled over and is looking right at me. I blush every shade of red and look away. He sat there for a moment then asked very confidently "like what you see?". My heart was beating so hard and i begain to feel as though i couldn't breath. I did not dare look at him or answer.

He reached towards me and instantly I covered my face in fear. Not answering was never accepted by my father but then again niether was me answering. So it was like instink to flench and cover my face. Thats were my father always went for first was my face. "Stupid little bitch" he would say as he smacked me.

Quickly anger shot across williams face. He pulled his hand back and quickly pealed the car back onto the road. His words sharp and cold as he begain to talk.
It will take three days of solid driving to get to my lands. Since I already made this trip to you in three days we will take five due to us getting a hotel tonight and tomorrow night. The last day we will drive threw the night and be home on Wednesday.
His eyes now black with anger he said the words I had already accepted but hearing them still stung.
Our parents alliance being the reason you are here does not mean I asked for this either so we will both play our parts and you will do your job as my wife to be. Do i make myself clear? William asked coldly.

I understand I muttered. Not wanting to let the hurt show on my face I continued to look out the window of the car. Tears rolling down my face in silence. My heart aked as I remembered my fathers last words.
"Since no one can love a slut like you selling you as a whore seems to be the only way to be rid of you".
And now William making it clear my job and obligations from the alliance.
I wanted to jump out of the car that very second and just run. RUN lilly my wolf cried.