When You're Gone || [13 Reasons Why (One-shot)]

Inner Sadness

‘I'm so tired of being here. Suppressed by all my childish fears. And if you have to leave. I wish that you would just leave. 'Cause your presence still lingers here. And it won't leave me alone. These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real. There's just too much that time cannot erase. I held your hand through all of these years. But you still have all of me. You used to captivate me by your resonating light. Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind. Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams. Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me. These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real. There's just too much that time cannot erase. I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone. But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along. When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears. When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears. And I held your hand through all of these years. You still have all of me, me, me..’

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'I always needed time on my own. I never thought I'd need you there when I cry. And the days feel like years when I'm alone. And the bed where you lie. Is made up on your side. When you walk away. I count the steps that you take. Do you see how much I need you right now? When you're gone, the pieces of my heart are missin' you. When you're gone, the face I came to know is missin' too. When you're gone, the words I need to hear. To always get me through the day. And make it okay. I miss you. I've never felt this way before. Everything that I do. Reminds me of you. And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor. And they smell just like you. I love the things that you do. When you walk away, I count the steps that you take. Do you see how much I need you right now? When you're gone, the pieces of my heart are missin' you. When you're gone, the face I came to know is missin' too. When you're gone, the words I need to hear. To always get me through the day. And make it okay. I miss you. We were made for each other. Out here forever. I know we were. Yeah, yeah. And all I ever wanted was for you to know. Everything I do, I give my heart and soul. I can hardly breathe; I need to feel you here with me. When you're gone, the pieces of my heart are missin' you. When you're gone, the face I came to know is missin' too. When you're gone, the words I need to hear. Will always get me through the day. And make it okay. I miss you.'

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Songs that inspired this one-shot ~

My Immortal - Evanescence
When You're Gone - Avril Lavigne

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Clay was in his room, laying on the bed. His back against it, as he is staring at the ceiling.

He's deep in his thoughts. Lately, it seemed like he was always thinking. Especially about her.

Clay was still sad and not over Hannah's death, that she's actually gone. Never to come back. In his life.

But, strangely enough, he felt like she was still there with him. He just couldn't see or hear Hannah.

It was like Hannah was a ghost, a spirit now.

That Clay could only feel was there, that her presence was with him.

Maybe it was just the sadness getting to him again. He had hope that it was different. That he wasn't going insane.

He was hesitant to talk to anyone about it, especially Tony. Even if he trusts him, Clay didn't want Tony to think that he was crazy.

Clay sighed softly, as he snapped out of it.

He reached over, grabbing what he had borrowed from Tony. He puts a cassette tape in. He was putting his headphones on as well. He pushed that button as it started playing a song.