I'm Still Here(Ricky Horror/Ash Costello Love Story/Fanfic) (DISCONTINUED)

~9~

*1 week later*

Ricky hasn't talked to me. I haven't heard from him. I haven't seen him. I haven't even felt him. I don't know what to do. Ash and I are becoming friends but none of that seems to matter. All I can think about is him and it feels like I'm losing him all over again. I don't really know how to feel. I'm just kind of empty. I learned Ash's last name. Costello. It suits her if I'm being honest. It flows off the tongue. Something's still mysterious about her though. She's calmer around me but something still feels off. It's probably just me. I'm determined to find out. We're hanging out this weekend so hopefully I'll find out. She doesn't know about Ricky and neither does anyone at school. Everyone is targeting me more because they think Ricky ditched me. It's Friday which gives me a little bit of motivation to actually try to make it through the day but as I walk through the doors of the building, Ash beside me, I immediately turn around. "Wanna skip?" I ask tiredly. She looks cautious at first but agrees. We head out and get into my car. I have no idea where I want to go now that I'm actually in the car. Ricky and I had this hideout in the woods but I don't know if I want to bring her there yet. It seems to soon but at the same time, I feel like Ricky would want me to have that special bond with someone else that he and I had. Ash and I are getting pretty close after all. After a few moments of pondering on the choices, I put the keys in the ignition and started to drive. "So," she starts, "where are we going?"

"I have this place my friend and I used to hang out when he was still..." I pause, not quite sure how to continue, "alive."

***

We make it to the woods and get out of the car. We start the short hike to the old clearing in the woods. I feel like Ash seems kind of sketched out that I'm taking her to the woods but it's honestly the best place to go when you want to get away from everything. We make it to the clearing not long after and she seems in awe at the place Ricky and I had found all those years ago. There is a small lake surrounded by rocks and trees. It's kind of odd how nobody has found this place because it's honestly so pretty. But at the same time, it feels so out of place. Ricky and I would always come here during the summer with pool floats and just lounge around in the lake. We would perch on some of the larger rocks and talk about anything and everything there was to talk about. I miss it. I want to have that with Ash.

***

I'm sitting on my bed scrolling through my laptop when I feel Ricky next to me. "Where have you been?" I ask. "I just needed time to...think." he replies. I nod and turn back to my computer. "You know Onyx," Ricky begins "I think we're better as friends. You deserve a chance with someone better like Ash." I inhale and shut my laptop. "I understand. Thank you Rick. I still love you but maybe it is better."

"This brings me to my next thing. There are some things I've been keeping from you."

"Okay? Shoot."

"Well it might be a lot at once but I was part of a spy agency with...Ash." It's so unbelievable that I almost laugh. But Ricky's face is serious as anything.

"She told me I could tell you. She's talking to you about it when she comes over. Oh and, uh, i think I'm gay and I kind of think I used to like your brother."

Holy. Motherfucking. Shit.