I spent everyday I wake in a pool of regret. The things I have and haven't done just constantly tormenting me with no clear sign of any sort of ending to it's madness. The constant threat of always hating who I am all my life and wanting to be something I'm not just echoing throughout my existence. How can one such as I even turn that tide, even though I'm getting the love for myself that I need but am I too late. I've held so much pain inside me for so long that I've now become numb to most things which potentially is heading in the direction of me feeling nothingness altogether. Why is it so hard to forgive myself for my past transgressions, to let myself be free of that drowning pain despite me wanting to. The thing is I can't forgive myself no matter how much I wish to I just physically, mentally and emotional can't and I I can't do it...
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Dying Alive
RandomJust random thoughts and visions into my life. It may not be all sunshine and rainbows but it's not always stresseses and downfalls. These are just me either venting.
