Soft Hours [kimseokjin x moonbyulyi]

23.55 two bottles of soju

It's been three weeks I dated the girl that I've always got a crush on, Moon Byulyi. It began as a simple crush, and one day I blurted out I like her, when we both playing some silly games in the backstage, waiting for our group to perform.

"Why don't we try to date, then?"

She said it like that, right after a crazy awkward of silence after I said three words that I never knew could change my life.

And I said yes, duh?

I still could feel the heat rise to my cheeks as Byul looked in my direction, she grinned and I snapped my head away, knowing that if I continued to stare I would get lost in her eyes.

"Well ok then, boyfriend."

That day, I couldn’t find my voice. I felt my cheeks flushed hot, and my stomach was heavy. My heart pounded in my chest, threatening to break out.

How many love songs had I've whistled, now every love songs made a lot of sense. My body numbed as she approached and I became painfully conscious of everything.

"I'm gonna perform, ok. See you later."

She whispered that to my ear. And I could finally admitted to myself what I knew all along, but was too afraid to admit it: I wanted her. A lot.

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But after that day, she never made the first move, making me frustrated because I can't sense that she was into me. It's always me who call first, text first, and ask her about that day. Her response is nothing different than when we were still best friends, but damn...

She didn't even say she like me back.

All of that making me insecure, maybe she doesn't like me the way I like her.

And I love her easygoing and carefree lifestyle, I do. But that charms of her making her having so many guy friends my finger can't count. She mingles with everybody freely, she talks with everybody as if she doesn't have a boyfriend.

Jealous?

Yeah, right. Her passive actions to me and her active actions toward others sometimes make me wanna frustrated.

But I'm afraid to tell her the heaviness in my chest, knowing that we just barely get together and I'm afraid I made a bad impression in her eyes.

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Jin:
Are you going alone?
You could ask me to drive you.

Byul:
It's okay.
It's just a regular girl's night
between my members.

Jin:
But your car is still
at your sister's right?

Byul:
Yeah, don't worry.
I'm gonna take the cab.

Jin:
NU!
I'm gonna drive you there.
Be there in 15

Byul:
Ok then.
Be careful.

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See? She didn't even tell me how she's gonna get there earlier if I didn't ask her. She should just ask me to drive her instead of going alone.

It makes me worry.

I waited in her apartment lobby for a while after texting her I've arrived. Suddenly the door is open and I saw her, dressed up so beautifully with the appearance that I've never seen before.

It was a girl's night tho, who is she going to impress?

Girls?

It felt like liquid adrenaline being inserted right into my bloodstream, making me enthusiastic. I can feel skin tingled when she locked her eyes on me. My heart beats haphazardly in my chest, so hard. It would burst.

Looking into Byul's doe-like eyes felt like looking into the sun for too long, almost burnt, but the burning sensation was satisfying. There were butterflies...

No, an entire zoo in my stomach, but it felt good.

“Are... you gonna drive?” She giggled

I couldn’t find a voice. I knew my cheeks flushed hot pink, embarrassed, so I just grabbed the wheel and started the engine.

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I was gonna make a sandwich when unexpectedly my phone rang a special ringtone for a special number, so I knew it was from Byul.

"Hello?"

"Oppa!" It was Hyejin's voice.

"Hyejin-ah!" I exclaimed.

"Can you pick Byulyi-unnie? We was drinking and it was overboard, so everybody is wasted."

"Is she okay?" I felt a sudden worry crawling in my chest.

"Yeah. Yonghee-unnie already took Yongsun-unnie, so I need you to take care Byulyi-unnie and I'm gonna drive Wheein home."

"You? You just said everybody is wasted." I asked her.

"Everybody but me. I have a schedule tomorrow's morning."

When I arrived, Hyejin pointed at drunk Byulyi sleepily leaning on the table, her head resting on her elbow. I sighed, I thought she has a high tolerance of alcohol. But after I've seen 5 empty bottles of Soju, I knew Byul and the members just had a blast night.

Hyejin helped me to get her on my back, as I continued to carry her to my car. After struggling to get her to get on my car, I sat blankly, staring at her again.

Suddenly her eyes was open, and she confusedly look at me.

"Yongsun-unnie? Oh, what were we talking about?"

"Byul-"

"Ah! So, I just don't know what to do about Jin."

Me?

"It's been so long I got in a relationship, I forgot everything! I can't remember how I was talking to him when we were still friends! My ex said I was too clingy so I don't want Jin to feel like I was too possessive, so I just, I just, eh? Who are you?"

I laughed. Seeing her like this made my heart twirl. Even in her drunk state, she was effortlessly looking gorgeous. Now I know why I always stop to look at her and admire her.

"Just sleep, okay," I said, and she nodded.

She leaned her head and placed it around my shoulders, allowed me to see her face closer. A smile crept in and the air grew heavy but still full with warmth that couldn’t help but make me breathe slower, deeper, happier.

Back to my apartment, I lifted her and she clung to me like a baby, straddled my neck and snuggling into my chest. When I got in my bedroom, the sudden stray of light from my bright lamp made her awake.

She abruptly get off from me, looked all angry and suddenly punch me hard in my stomach.

"WHAT are you doing?! I have a boyfriend!! He is Jin from BTS!"

and she slammed my bedroom door.

I could only curled in the floor, stroking my stomach she had hit. It was painful, but the last thing she said really made my chest full.

This girl, seriously...