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Hindi ko akalain na aabot sa ganito ang lahat.
Hindi naman ako nagkulang.
Binigay ko naman ang lahat ng aking makakaya.
I did try my best, para maipakita ko sa kanya na mahal ko sya.
Pero, bakit ganun?
Na kahit ano pa ang gawin mo, kapag hindi ikaw ang mahal at laman ng puso nya, wala din naman palang kwenta.
Umiyak ako, nagmakaawa, at higit sa lahat, I swallowed my pride.
But, nothing happened.
So, I decided to end my life here.
It's pathetic, but it's my best option for now.
I can't continue my life anymore.
Walang-wala na ako.
Alam kong sa umpisa pa lang, ako na ang matatalo, pero sumugal pa rin ako.
Alam kong masasaktan ako, pero sinubukan ko pa rin. Naniniwala kasi ako sa pagkakataon na baka sakaling 'ako naman'.
Pero hindi eh, kabaliktaran lahat ang nangyari sa mga nais ko, sobrang sakit pala kapag andun ka na sa parteng kailangan mo ng tumigil.
This bridge where Im standing, will witness my pain and also my pathetic death.
Patuloy akong umiiyak habang nakatayo sa may tulay, nanlalabo ang paningin ko dahil sa mga luhang lumalabas sa aking mata.
But I don't care. No one would ever care, if Im gone.
I want to stop this pain.
I want to stop my heart from beating.
But when, I step my foot to jump... someone grab my hand.
What?
Lumingon ako at nakita ang isang lalaki na kasing-edad ko lang.
Bakit nya pa ako pinigilan?
"Dont... stop me."
I hoarsely said.
"No... don't do this."
Patuloy nito habang hawak ang kamay ko.
I look at him, and I saw an unreadable expression on his face.
And his eyes, were dark and blank.
Ayaw pa rin nitong bitawan ang kamay ko.
"You can't do this alone."
"And why?"
I snapped.
"Because...."
Im waiting for his reply, when he held my hand tightly.
My forehead crease with his gesture.
"I know your pains. I know what you feel, as if your dying slowly. And you are not alone in this battle."
I– I don't understand him.
What is he trying to tell me?
"Then?"
I ask.
"So..."
He trailed, while looking below the bridge.
"Let's jump together."
Below I can react, he grab my hand and I feel my body submerged in the cold water.
Ah, finally.
And I smile as darkness filled me.
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