The Way You See

Decision

I don't know the weird knot in my chest which keeps bugging me when I think about the choice I made.

I know, I wasn't wrong but there are some things which I have to control.

I can't give you all when I have to face everything alone.

My eyes get watery when I look at your face, I hold them back and pretend there is nothing which you can change.

I hold to my grudges when I know you can take a step back for my sake.

There are lots I had in my mind when I was thinking about making a decision for your life.

(Once again, I'm trying to write something which may be helpful for you to figure out some stuff in your life.

Occasionally life gives you many circumstances as I mentioned above in the lines to make harsh decisions in your life, you may don't want to but still, you have too. Right?

Then you guys, go back to your time and thinks if you would have made the right choice or not, then there is this debate starts of doubting on your worth and that tiny choice convert into a storm in your head. So technically you are all messed up till the time you would be able to see the results of your choice which you have made when you were sliced in making decisions during your rough phase.

Do you know guys the easiest way to keep your shit together? ( will explain you eventually if you still having any doubt of doing it how. )

Do you know guys when something is not for you, you can easily say I'll pass, this is not for me.

Or someone likes me, who will make extra efforts and cross my limits so I can learn and do something which may be out of my reach.  Yeah, you may consider if something is not for me I should be doing the same, just pass it and do something else. But that's not who I am.

If someone says this is not for me, then hell yeah, I definitely work hard for it and get it, sometimes it's a skill or individual. I do that because I made my mind for it.
I decided at that time what I really want.  But it's not about me, it's about who you are and what you really want.  Don't depend on someone else decision.

Your efforts and your choice are two main focus area where you should work on.

Look I'm also really sensitive like you all, I can be a loving girl for you and for some peeps, I'm a bad bitch. My personality really confusing but it depends on how you behave toward me. ( read it again and see, it is my decision how to behave or should I say, I didn't give people a choice to hurt me, I decided it in my mind if they hurt me or not because after their sweet and harsh remarks, it would be me who has to decide and take which way I should feed this to my mind.

So basically, you have the power to change your life, I'm not saying do it all on your own. Ofc you have to but you can rely on someone who can hear you out and will help you to put the broken pieces back of your puzzling life.

I was aware of it, I was a strong girl but in a decision making, I was really bad because I don't know back then how to think realistic everything seems so fucking messed up. But in my case, I got lucky, with my strong will and some bad bitches ( hell send them to me😂😂😂 knock some sense in my head and within a few years changed the hell out of me. 😂🍻 so now here I'm giving you my sense of humour speech btw your welcome guys. 
-WordSmith-   Do check this out, I wrote this specially for you 😂Dont be a scary guy and take a deep breath let go the heaviness from your chest. You are a really amazing guy don't doubt on your mind. Which is full of fantasy btw 😂😂 okay.  I'm not saying anything further as I can sense what you must be thinking right now xd. ( Btw, if you are wondering why the hell she's still awake and writing this at this hour of night for you then don't get me wrong, I just had my tea at 12am so now it's1.33am 😂😂.

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