The New World

Three

"Sorry I couldn't come the other day but Dad took me to see Grandpa Cundiff. He misses you just as much as Dad and I do. Can you believe I'm eighteen?"Biting my lip trying to suppress the sob that wants to escape, but it's no use.

"Why Mom ? Huh, why would you do that to yourself Mom? To me? To Dad?"

The memory forcing itself to the forefront of my mind. Three years is not enough time for the image to be forgotten.

' If it ever can be'

I was late coming home from school. I started staying away from my house for as long as I could since my older brother Dale died in a swimming accident. We all took his death hard, but Mom was hit the hardest by it. She became so depressed that I'm ashamed to admit I couldn't stand being around her.

The sky was just starting to get the orange glow, that only the sunsetting could bring.  My favorite part of the day.

Opening the front door all the lights were off, the house was disturbingly quiet. I remember my heart started to hammer my rib and a cold sweat started on the back of my neck.

I got that feeling. You know the one?

When you know something bad is just waiting to happen, you just don't know what feeling.

I searched every room in the house leaving Dale's room for last. I knew whatever it was it was in that room. My trembling hand turns my brother's door knob, not ready, but needing to know.

I don't know how long I stood there frozen in my spot. Watching my mother's lifeless body hanging from the ceiling.

"Raven! Come on Ray Ray snap out of it baby girl." My uncle Joe's voice broke me out of the trance.

"Mom?" My voice cracks.

"Sweetheart I want you to wait in the living room while I call the police and your father." 

As soon as I turn to do just as Joe said I see a single sheet of paper with my Mother's hand writing On my brother's dresser.

I just can't live in a world where their love was more important than my son's life.  They are no better than us, in fact they are far far worse! Humans  are blind right now, but I know my people will rise up. It may be years and years down the road but I know that we will rise up and fight for all the injustice caused by those animals.

She made no mention of the loving  and devoted husband she was leaving behind or the daughter she seemed to forget she had when we lost Dale. So that's why for the last three years I have hidden her 'goodbye' note. I feel there is no need to hurt my father more than he already is by her.

"I will never be able to understand Mom. We were hurting too, but you didn't see that did you? No you only cared and thought about your own pain. We stuck and are still sticking it out. While you took the cowards way out."

I swear every time I come here it's not to yell and question her, but it happens every damn time. Along with the big fat tears that roll down my face at warp speed.

I know that people that commit suicide are in extreme amounts of pain, but the second they end their lives, their pain just passes on to the many people they leave behind, and it's fucking selfish!

Call me insensitive, but it's my truth.

" I will never be able to forgive you, you know that right?" Asking her questions that I know she will never be able to answer, but the truth is I miss my Mom's voice.

"Are you alright?" A deep voice asked. Alerting me to the fact that I am no longer alone. Half expecting it to be uncle Joe but no it's none other than Alpha Kane.

Kane stands at an amazing 6'6 with honey blonde hair and deep  chocolate eyes. Eye's that are currently  boring into my midnight blue'.  He is definitely sex on muscled legs.

Realizing that I am just sitting here gawking at him has me mentally slapping myself out of the sexy trance he always seems to make me fall into.

"Yes alpha." quickly dropping my eyes to the ground. Never look a shifter in the eyes for too long unless you're looking for a fight.

" You know Raven, it  is okay to NOT be okay."

"I do Alpha and honestly I'm okay."  Alpha Kane is still giving me a hard but knowing look. "For the most part. Now I'm more pissed than sad now a day's."

" I understand. If you ever need anything, all you have to do is ask."

Ever since my mother took her life, Alpha Kane has been hands on in helping my family. I suppose that's where my little crush started.

I know that it will never lead to anything though. I am a human, and he has already found his mate.  Soon he will have to find  a wolfborn to become his mate and Luna.

"Thank you Alpha." He gives me a quick short head nod, before turning to walk away.

"Actually Alpha." Shit, fuck and damn you hormones!

" The gathering is coming up and I just want to know if a human  is born with a medical condition, what are the chances of them having a mate?"  Figured I should use my want to keep Alpha Kane in my sight so that I can find out Alley's chances of having a mate.

" You are asking with a certain person in mind, correct?" He quirks a brow at me.

"Yes sir. My cousin Alley. She has brittle bone syndrome."

"I don;t know the exact percentage but I know it does happen. Maybe not often, but it's not unheard of."

My heart drops into my stomach. I know it's silly and I know people live long lives with B.B.D, But I just want Alley to live a long life without fucking pain.