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Some time after they all left , I crawled to my room and sat by my bed and cried , I really felt hurt . "why is it always me " , I whispered while crying . After a little while I heard a knock on my door , I whipped my tears and and said , "come in " , trying to sound normal but failed. The door opened revealing Jin oppa , I faked a smile and asked him , "do you need something oppa? " , he exhaled  sharply and said , "we need to talk " , I was confused and shocked by his next move. He picked me up and placed me on my bed , my uppar body resting on the headboard . He covered my legs with the blanket laying on the bottom side of the bed , then he sat on the bed facing me and took my hands in his , "Y/N tell me , did you really threatened jackson and jb to do that to kokie? " , he question just took me aback. "you won't believe me and prehaps you don't trust me" , I said faintly. He squeezed my hands and said , "I trust you Y/N , tell me please " , I looked in his eyes . I don't know what's happening . " I didn't do it " , I said looking in his eyes. He nodded before continuing. " From how long are you been taking sleeping pills ? ", did he check my room or something, " four years ", he closed his eyes and nodded ," why?", he asked squeezing my hand a little bit,"I- I don't know too I just can't seem to live without them now", I confessed. Yeah I'm addicted to sleeping pills and I sometimes overdose. " why didn't you tell us about your illness? ", he probably checked my room , " I didn't want to bother you guys and perhaps I knew no one would care " , he closed his eyes, "what happen to you arms? " , did he see me, "Jackson did that", " and about the blades and cutters?", yeah he did check my room. "It doesn't matter" I said flashing him a smile , his eyes were watery.
"what is the matter of this jackson and his brothers? " , I exhaled sharply before telling him everything about what happened the day when Bambam jumped and everything what jackson did. I didn't noticed I was crying till he wiped my tears . He got up and said , " remove you uniform " , and went in my bathroom. I did as he said and wore an oversized hoodie. He knocked the door, "I've changed" , I said , he came with a first aid box . "remove that too " , he said pointing at my hoodie. " but -", I really feel shy, "I'll be only in my undergarments ", he placed the box on the bed , "don't worry , I'm your brother " , he said sitting on my bed . I awkwardly removed my hoodie . He gestured me to sit on the bed. I did as he said , now I was facing him. He took one of my arm and removed the bandage the cuts I've made , new and old , and the 'work' of jackson, then he took some antiseptic liqid and cleaned my whole arm reveling my bruises and scars that were hidden by the concealer . He did the same with my other arm. Then he wiped my neck and legs and stomach and  then my face. He looked at me from head to toe covered in bruises , cuts and scars , I smiled the best I can , not wanting to break down . He ran his hand over my cheek and busted in tears , seeing him cry I busted in tears too. He wrapped his arms around me, "I'm sorry , I'm really sorry I wasn't there to save you . I should have protected you " , I patted his head, " it's not you fault , you did what was right and you never lay a finger on me " , I said trying to cheer him up. "tell me one last thing " , he said sitting straight , "you didn't kill appa , right? " , I froze on my spot , "I did " , I said blankly , "you are lying " , he whispered, "I'm not lying , I killed appa. I killed him with my own hand " , I said looking in his eyes ,"why? " , he asked, now he was turning angry, "because - " , I can't tell him , I've promised eomma not to let them know. " because I hate him , he loved you all more than me . I killed him because I wanted to " , I said trying my best to make it look like it's true. He looked at me and frowned. "you killed him just because of a fucking stupid non exixting thing " , he stood up , "are you insane or what" , I can see anger in his eyes. "I'm not insane , he deserve to die" , I said looking down. Just then a shocking thing happened , he slapped me . I look up at him , "you ruined our lives just because of your fucking assumptions . You will never change Y/N . If you can kill him and get eomma in coma then you fucking can even threaten jackson to hurt kook " , he said and turned around to walk out . When he was about to exit , he turned his face to me and said , " you broke my trust " , and walked out . I just sat there smiling , "it's better you hate me than know the real reason that man is dead " , I said .