Throw Me To The Wolves

ONE

Whoever said that high school was some of your best years in school was lying, because I hated every second.
I was a nice person, why was it so hard to make friends, real friends at least?
Everyone had their own clicks and i didn't fit into any of them at all, I had nothing at all,maybe that was my problem, I couldn't fit myself in anywhere.
Suddenly loud cheering interrupted my train of thought and I turned around  and rolled my eyes. It was the jocks,I turned back to my locker when I heard his voice.
Kim Taehyung, one of the main stars on the team, we had been friends once, best friends, right up until the end of middle school when he found a new group and completely forgot about me. I missed him but I could never go and speak to him now,he probably wouldn't even remember me and wonder who the hell I was, not that that mattered now, he could have his pick of all his adoring fans instead who followed the whole team around every day just chattering and screaming.I sighed and grabbed my books from my locker before they had a chance to notice me.
I don't know why I felt this way in the first place, we had been kids, people change all the time. I felt a tear roll down my cheek betraying how I really felt inside, I wiped it away with the back of my hand as quickly as I could. I was being silly, it had been years,I should not be feeling this way, he had moved on, why couldn't I?
Now I hated this place even more than I already did.

TAEHYUNG'S POV: It felt nice to be accepted but deep down,I still felt lonely,I don't know why though,I had amazing friends and people loved me, but for a split second, I thought I had seen someone I knew a long time ago.It was a fleeting glance when we had first entered the corridor but I was so sure it had been her,I wanted to go back and speak to her but what if I was wrong?or what if I was right and she didn't want to speak to me or even see me? What if she was still feeling hurt by how I had treated her what felt like a lifetime ago. It wasn't a risk I wanted to take but I missed her so much it hurt me inside.
We had been best friends,we had been inseparable right up until we were about to graduate middle school when it happened, I didn't want to leave her but I wouldn't have been able to live with myself if I ever ended up hurting her in any way if I couldn't control my new found self. I had to go,it was for her, it was to protect her.
But that was then, this was now, things were different now,I could control myself, we could be friends again, maybe....
'You okay there bro?' Namjoon asked in my mind, I shook my head.
'Yeah course' I smiled and he raised an eyebrow at me.
'What's going on? who are you looking at?' looking in the same direction I was.
'Nothing, no one' I replied.I hated lying to him but it was better than trying to explain everything, well for now at least.
I sighed to myself.