Day Dream / Moon Taeil of NCT

VII

Dearest Meari,

I'm sorry I failed you, mama and papa loves you so much, you shone the brightest light into our lives my angel. Me and your dad are so deeply in love with you. Today, I will be visiting your dad in the hospital, the doctor told me your papa is awake! Honey bear, mama is so lucky to be alive, I wish you are here my angel. Did you save me Meari? My heart aches for you my child, I wish I could trade my life for you. I'm heart broken, but I need to be strong for you and papa. Meari, I really miss you, I miss how you would always cry in the mornings, you would always wake me up because you're hungry, then after you would giggle after I feed you. Remember the toy uncle Taeyong gave you? The tiny penguin? You really loved that, you cried when I took it our of your crib while you were asleep. I miss your sweet voice, your first word wasn't mama or papa, but that's okay, your first word was 'love' honey bear, you were made out of love. It's been 3 months since I haven't heard or seen you. I know you're doing well up there, don't worry, I will take good care of your papa. Your uncles, grandmas and grandpas took very good care of me. But baby, mama is so tired of the hate, I want to follow you, should I follow you? So we can be together? They told me that it was my fault, I know it isn't, it took me few weeks to accept that it isn't. Some fans are really kind to me, the gave me flowers when I came out of the hospital. Honey bear, mama is trying to be strong. I'm trying so hard. Please pray for me. I have no idea how to explain my emotions, I need you and your dad with me, it sucks to be alone. I know that we will meet again one day. I'm sorry I didn't get to fetch you from your first day of school, watch you graduate from daycare, or high school. Watch you go on a date with your first love or even see you get married. I'm so sorry. I love you.

Love,
Mom

I folded the piece of paper then ignited it, letting the wind take it to where you are resting, I miss you angel. God, please let my love reach Meari in heaven.

As soon as I reached to open the door, it suddenly flew open and Johnny came out bawling his eyes out.

"John, what happened?"

"I'm sorry, please look for yourself, good luck."

My love, I can't believe it. I can finally see your beautiful brown eyes again, I fell more deeper in love knowing you're back.

"Taeilie... I missed you."

I couldn't help but cry when you looked at me, I missed my husband, I missed my other half. We waited for 3 months, Taeil.

"너의 이름이 뭐야?"

It broke me.

What's your name?