Toxic~sariano~

iT bEgInS

mar p.o.v

"Mar I cant even stand, how are you going to carry me while washing both of us" samy asked pouting. How did he manage to make my heart skip multiple beats.

"I'll just shower after I give you an bath" I kneel down by the tub. I switch it from a shower to a bath.

I went back to naked samy who was asleep. I chuckled 'my dick really put him to sleep'. I picked him up and placed him in.

After I finished cleaning him up I turned off the water. I sat him on the counter putting on his boxer and giving him one of my hoodies. It fitted him a little oversized.

And covered his boxers. It was so sexy to me. I couldn't leave him on the counter until I finished showering so I layed him on the bed kissing his head.  "You're mine forever, no matter how toxic I get".

One month later

Third person

"Then Why cant you mar!" Samy voice was soft but it couldn't hide the anger.

"I dont got to explain anything to you faggot" mar spat. He wanted samy to hate him. To leave him for someone better.

"You think that's hurts me mar! You think that I'm not used to the fucking feeling. Maybe it hurt when my dad called me it and beat me until I couldn't open my eyes. Mar you going to hit me too, it wouldn't be the first time" he stopped. He had alot more to say but he wanted the last sentence to burn in mariano mind.

"Why the fuck would you ever say that"  mar pinned samy into the wall and roughly grabbed his face to make him look him in the eye.

"Its true" samy let out tears streaming. He couldn't lose mar after what he been through just to be with him.

"Dont ever tell me to hit you I made that mistake but NEVER again. Just forget about me, I'm only toxic anyway" mar grip on samy soften as his eyes blurred with tears threatening to fall.

He didnt want it to end. The love of his life would be set free and find someone who was perfect and everything mar wasnt and more. He couldn't stand seeing samy come to school everyday sad because his dad had called him slurs. His mom was gone still and his dad recently came back because of sickness.

Samy ran into the kitchen right past mar. He grabbed a knife. Closing his eyes. His hands were shaking and he could barely breathe because of how hard he was crying. He couldn't do this anymore. And if mar is leaving him than there is no more reasons to live. He felt this way for the whole month. Mar was the only thing keeping him in this hell.

"Samy? SAMY! SAMY STOP OKAY! SAMY ILL EXPLAIN OKAY. SAMY JUST.... IF YOU DO THIS IM GOING TO DO THE SAME."

samy dropped the knife. He couldn't be the reason mar killed himself. He'll do it when mar leaves.

"I'm doing it so you can find better-"

"BULLSHIT! YOU NEVER LOVED ME YOU WERE FUCKING USING ME. YOURE STRAIGHT STOP PRETENDING THAT YOU CARE AND LOVE ME WHEN I KNOW YOU DONT"

"Are you dumb? You sound fucking retarded. I FUCKING love you with all my heart. I'm not straight because you are a boy and I want you. But I cant have you. You need to be with someone who stable. Someone who will be something. Because I'm not shit"

Samy looked at mar. Processing everything. His heartbeat was the only thing he can hear. His tear still falling.

They have been arguing for 8 hours. Because mar tried to break up with him. Samy walked to mar and hugged him without hesitation mar hugged back. Mar kept repeating " I dont deserve you" and everytime samy said he did if anything he deserved more.

Mar kissed samy's neck. When he inhales he can smell the tears. When he liked his lips he tasted his salty tears.

"I cant lose you, you're all I have left"samy said he passed out on mars lap. Mar carried him upstairs before doing the same.

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Trash chapter in my opinion. I lowkey want to end this before I ruin it.

Okay I really hate this chapter like I could do better but hopefully you like it

Also I think imma start writing my ale×alv book

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