i know | j.hs. |

one

"How are you? It's been so long since we saw each other."

I forced myself to smile as I remembered our last time we met up. It's been five months since then. Since we broke up.
You stired up your coffee as you put the sugar inside.

"I'm good. I moved to my parents house for while and am currently looking for a flat here. And you? How have you been, Hoseok?"

'I miss you.'

I liked the way how you said my name. It sounded beautiful with your voice."Good....I'm good." An awkward laugh went throuh my lips. Pulling the straps from my hoodie a little, out of habit when I am nervous, I gulped.

We sipped silently at our cups. The rain was pouring outside and little droplets were running down the glass of the window. I stared at it for a while before realizing that I almost finished my drink.

I felt the urge to say it. I couldn't hold it anymore. The emotions that stored inside of me in these past months were suffocating.

"I miss you."

The words surprisingly slipped out in a calm voice. It gave me goosbumbs, but you didn't seemed surprised. You had no reaction to it. You just gave me a small smile and shaked your head.

"Hoseok-"

"I miss you. You can't imagine how much I've been thinking about you. Please, can we go back? Like we used to?"

"I don't think we can ever go back as we used to." Your hair fell into your eyes as you looked down.

But I didn't wanted to give up on you yet. I tried to reach your hand on the table. "We can restart. We can do it. We just have to have a little faith in it....in us. Please-"

"No." You said it in a calm voice, yet it hurt me so much. You slid your hand under the table, avoiding the physical contact. Tears builded up in my eyes. My heart ached as I looked down at my hands.

"It was your choice to break up with me Hoseok. We had it rough together and got into fights a lot. I accepted it and moved on. And you should too. Even if we go back together, it wouldn't be the same as in the start, when we were in love....I'm sorry." You looked into my eyes with misery and sympathy, but I didn't wanted you to look at me like that.

It felt more suffocating, now that you didn't missed me as much as I missed you.

I laughed akwardly as I quickly wiped the tears away. "Man....I look really foolish right now, don't I?"

"Hoseok-"

"It's okay. I can understand. Sorry for wasting your time. Have a great life, I hope you the best." I stood up and pulled a 20 dollar out of my pocket. "For the coffee...."