Ms. Detective (I) {under construction}

54. What am I to you?

I reached home. I do not wanted to face him though. I might be looking like acting a little out of my character but I'm tired of being always the understanding one. I want him to understand me as well.

As we entered, Rudra and Dr. Shalini, who were sitting at dining table, looked at us. They were having coffee.

Vikram gives a light hug to her. And sits next to her.

"Did you call?" I asked Rudra casually.

"Yeah. I did not know where the coffee was kept." He says without looking at me. His voice might sound casual to others but to me it felt like he do not want to even see me right now.

Do we need some time to think about it or should we just stop seeing each other! Or am I just overthinking? Why's he behaving as if I am useless to him? Even if it is my own thought but why? Why he has to make me feel this way?

Where did we go wrong?

*

It was the same night. We ordered food from outside and were eating separately.  He was eating and watching television while I was eating in the room while studying about the case report of Rudra that I should submit soon.

My phone screen blinks and I found it were messages from the very new person to me.

Dr. Shalini.

She has sent me some audio messages.

"I recorded the session. I decided to send it to you only if it's necessary. And I think it is." Her text follows the messages.

I don't wanna listen. I just don't. But I know I should... because... I need to prepare the reports.

To be honest, I'm curious to listen to these recordings but something is stopping me. Is it because I'm losing my mind and more importantly my heart on him?

I must be sounding selfish but I truly want to avoid him and things related to him for now. He needs to be understanding.

"I'm sorry if I'm interrupting but...you seemed a bit rude towards him." Her message makes me look again at my blinking phone screen. "Don't mind me... It's just my job that I can't stop myself from observing behaviors of people." Next message popped up.

"I don't know.... I need to make myself understand. I think I need to take a break." I replied finally entering into the chat room.

She called me the next moment and I picked it up.

"Trisha. I know it's hard. But you were available right beside him for so long. The complications happen but you have to be understanding"

I adore how straight forward she is.

"Dr. Shalini, thank you for talking to me like a friend. But.... You can't expect me to be always the understanding one. I mean... I waited for him from the day I fell for him. I waited to let him fall for me and he did. But.... He says he can't accept me in his life as a partner. How can I hold my patience and why should I?"

"It's okay... You both are mature enough to handle this situation. You guys need some time to get to know about each other more. Think of me as your elder sister and call me whenever you need." She says before disconnecting the call.

*

A week has been passed after that day. I and Rudra didn't really talk and neither ignore each other. It felt like a distance in between. And he seems to be doing okay. I mean of course he got panic attacks and I managed him but that's all. It felt like we're actually in a formal relationship.