𝐖𝐈𝐋𝐋 𝐈 𝐁𝐄 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐃

𝐈𝐈 | 2 : 𝐍𝐞𝐰

-𝐌𝐚𝐫𝐢𝐞-

I decided that I wanted to take off for today. I really was drained ya know. From all of this blowing up in my face. I decided to get an apartment or condo.

Ima leave right under his nose. I'm not even gonna get my clothes from our house. I'm gonna just buy some new ones and when we are all the way divorced, I'm gonna get my stuff then.

I sat in my car just staring at nothing in particular. Too long I took this pain, I'm ready to live for me. I got my laptop out of my bookbag and tried to find a small apartment.

I don't need anything big.

I found one for 25,000. I'm just gonna rent it. I even got all my furniture ready for it.

I'll put it in storage until I get the keys. I'm gonna meet up with the realtor today. I'ma try to get out as fast as possible. I went to the bank and got my duffle bag that was in my backseat.

I went in there and told them that I needed to take all of the money out of the account.

"You sure mam, you have 1.5 million in it." She said looking at her computer.

Damn, my grandparents left me this much.

"Okay then give me half of it and leave the other half in," I said.

She took me to a room and it had all the money. She gave me half then I left the bank. I left to meet up with the realtor.

It was a dope ass house. I gave her the money and since I paid it with money straight up, she said I can have it by Wednesday.

That's in about a couple of days.

It's enough time for me to get my furniture. I went back to the house and took a shower. I decided to sleep in the guest room. I can't just sleep in the same room knowing he's cheating.

After I got out I put on my night clothes and called my best friend , Nicole.

"Hey Nicole," I said laying down on the bed.

"Hey cutie pie. How you've been holding up. I noticed you didn't come back to the shop." Nicole told me.

She always knows when something is wrong with me.

"Well, I just saw Jackson cheating." I said, about to cry.

I didn't really know why he was cheating on me. I mean I've always asked to have sex. But every time I do he always turns it down.

I mean am I that bad to look at? I just hate being this big. It's sad really. My own husband won't have sex with me, because I'm a little bigger than what I used to be.

Well, actually I don't know why I'm begging anyways. Shit not even that good. I never even experienced a real orgasm.

Sad, just sad.

Me getting with a man when I was only 16 had slowed my options down. But that's my fault and I have to accept it .

"What you mean?" Nicole asked with a confused tone.

"Well, while I was buying my lunch I was just looking out the window carelessly. And Jackson was with some girl laughing." I shook my head.

"Wait. You don't know that for sure, you could just be overreacting."

"Well, I forgot to tell you that he kissed the girl tongue and all." I said.

"Aww hell naw. Put on your shoes I'm coming to get you," She said, making me confused.

"What. Why?"

"Because, we finna go to whichever bitch house he ate and do a fuckin' drive-by." She said it like it was nothing.

"Girl no, we could go to jail." I said, my eyes widening.

"Okay, Okay. That might've been a little extreme," She said.

"Ya think?"

"Okay," She said, sighing.

It was silent on the phone for a couple of minutes until she spoke up. "So. What's your next move?" She asked.

"Well, I'm moving out. As soon as I found out he was cheating and seeing it, I've decided it's time for me to leave. I've been in this relationship for years and nothing seems to work. I can't even look at him too long without crying. When I get my house furnished and have everything set up, I'm finally filing for a divorce." I told her as I let a couple tears slip.

"It's ok babes but If that nigga hit you or something you call me, I got some for his ass. " She said and I could feel her smirking.

"Ok babes good night," I said, kissing into the phone.

"K, babes." She said, hanging up.

I sighed and turned my lamp off and adjusted how I was on the bed. I sat there for a while drowning in my thoughts, when I finally had closed my eyes.

I was almost asleep when I heard the door open. I then heard the light switch turn on and could see red through my eyelids. I continued to fake sleep, then I heard Jackson mumble something under his breath.

I just decided to leave it alone, don't got time for him. My eyes finally closed and I fell into a slumber.