Dawn - Jeankasa

1 | Dreams

I stood in the old garden my mother used to keep. Rays of sunshine beamed down on the organized rows of plants, and there wasn't a cloud in the sky.

"Mikasa" I heard a voice calling behind me.

I spun around and saw my mother standing in the doorway. She was just as I remembered her, with those gentle grey eyes of hers and pitch black hair. I ran towards her, my eyes tearing up.

"A shame you couldn't save me" she smiled, turning away and vanishing into the dark doorway of the house.

"No! Don't go, don't leave me!" I yelled, reaching out to grab her.

But she was gone.

I jerked awake, breathing heavily. It was still dark out so I laid back down in bed. I reached over and grabbed my scarf from off my bedpost and wrapped it around me. After five minutes of trying to fall back asleep I realized it was pointless. Sasha was snoring loudly, which didn't exactly help either. I stared up at the ceiling trying to decipher the dream I just had. It had been ages since I had last thought about my parents, and the time I spent with them felt a memory. Since I can remember I've always been the calm and composed one, the one others could come to for support. Thinking in the moment and not getting caught up in the past is what keeps me going. I know I've failed at saving people I care about many times, but I have to continue trying to protect my comrades.

I got up and dressed quietly, careful to not wake anyone. The cold morning mist engulfed the camp as I sat on the porch waiting for the sun to rise. I turned my gaze over to the boys cabin, I wondered what Eren was dreaming about. Probably how he's going to kill all the titans, I laughed to myself. The sun began to rise, casting the camp in a golden light. I glanced over at the boys cabin and saw Jean of all people standing on the porch. Our eyes met for a moment, then he glanced away, blushing. I had known Jean had a crush on me for some time, but had hoped he would let it go. Romance was on the bottom of my list of priorities, and even though I loved Eren, I understood that now wasn't the best time for a relationship. Besides it was clear Eren wasn't into me anyway, but I kept hoping that eventually he might come to see me as more than a sister.

"Mikasa-would you like to take a walk with me? We have like 30 minutes before breakfast.." I looked up to see Jean standing in front of me.

"Sure," I replied, seeing nothing better to do. We began walking around camp perimeters.

"So-um do you have any future goals?" Jean asked, trying to fill the awkward silence.

"To protect the people I care about".

"That's a good goal to have" replied Jean.

"If it's not too painful for you to recall, what was it like on the day the titans came? I mean everybody has heard Eren's version of the story and all but what was it like for you?" Jean inquired. I couldn't hide the shock that came to my face at that question. It felt weird to be asked a question about me, to be asked how I felt about something. Even Eren had never really asked me a question like that. I felt Jean's gaze on me and responded

" I've never really thought about it to be honest. I mean my parents were killed when I was young, and Eren's parents became family to me. Watching Carla, Eren's mother and my adoptive mother die, and knowing that I couldn't save her was hard. I kept telling myself I couldn't lose anyone else, and that's why I've always been so protective of Eren and Armin."

"I'm sorry you had to go through that." said Jean.

"It's ok," I responded.

"Well-um if you ever need to talk or anything, I'm always here" Jean stammered.

"Thanks" I replied.

We continued walking in silence, until the bell calling us for breakfast rang. We both broke into a jog in order to make it there in time, as we were on the far end of camp. We made it with seconds to spare, we walked into the mess hall simultaneously and went to sit in our usual seats. I noticed the other cadets staring, and simply ignored it.

As we all got in line for food, I was bombarded with questions from the other girls.

"Are you and Jean like a thing now?" Sasha asked, already beginning to eat the food she had stacked on her plate.

"No, we both just happened to be awake early and he asked me on a walk." I responded coldly with a glare, so she didn't bring it up again.

Once we all sat down with our food, Instructor Saidis came into the mess hall with morning announcements.

"LISTEN UP TITAN CHOW," He shouted "DUE TO OUR COOKS SUDDEN RESIGNATION YOU ALL WILL TAKE TURNS PREPARING AND CLEARING MEALS STARTING TOMORROW. YOU WILL BE SPLIT INTO GROUPS OF 3 THAT ARE LISTED ON THE LIST BELOW. ALSO, TODAY IS OMNI DIRECTIONAL GEAR TRAINING IN THE WOODS". He proceeded to hang the list of groups before walking out. A small crowd of cadets gathered around the list, anxiously scanning it to see who they would be paired with. I sighed, walked over to stand next to Eren who pushed his way through the crowd to see.

"Great, we are stuck with horse face for breakfast duty tomorrow" Eren complained, shooting a glare over at Jean.

Why of all people to get stuck in a group with, did it have to be Eren and Jean?! This was going to be a complete and utter disaster.

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AN: This is my first fanfic so I hope you like it! Thanks for reading :)