Fragment of Memories

PROLOGUE

People do really judged you, not just by the looks but also to their eyes.

My name is Yuzuki, a name that was given to me but I'm not so sure if this was my real name. I was raised by a family that i thought it would be a perfect family that i could ever imagine. A family portrait with deep meaning, capturing their dazzling smiles that readily expressed feelings of pure happiness. My false hope, however, was dashed when I realized I could never entirely be a part of their wonderful existence. A curse to their own eyes.

I treated unfairly because of who I am, because I'm different. Even my mother that i knew is quite far and opposite that I've ever imagine. It really tells me how different from how I appear to be. Each brutal expression tossed my way felt like an onslaught of a thousand needles piercing my feeble soul. If I could only pull myself up and state my side, then it would all end, right?

I believed that family is such a wonderful word to hear, despite of having a children and also a parents that will do anything just to provide you a shelter but why it's so opposite?

Is this the reason why i exist? To bring a bad omen in the family that's why treat me this way?

"It's your fault." Mother pointed her finger towards her.

"You're the reason why my husband had died because of you, Witch!"

"Wh-what did i do, Mom." as i started to be emotional in front of her, Lilith is standing next to me felt so heartless to see her reaction.

She...she stood there, Giving me the looks of apathy; uninterested listener, Lilith. She's the eldest member of the family as they were silence witnesses to my anguish. The weight of their indifference added to the weight of my scarred existence, a pain that consumed me.

Mom was laughing in front of me knowing that i could read it on her eyes what she really feel for my father's death. "I really hate you the way your existence annoyed me, you're such a piece of shit." She stated and i was about to hold her hand. "Mom.." I was crying and begging and yet asking for forgiveness that i couldn't never imagine what sins and curse do i have in this family to treat me this way.

"You're not my daughter, stop holding my hand." As she slapped my face and pushed me away to her sight knowing that i couldn't be able to moved not even a single thing. As i pushed aside in the floor my knees felt numb that i could not stood up for myself and I didn't noticed that a single slapped would hurt my soul. As she stared in front of me. "Lilith and Advanna". They are my daughters and you're even not a part of it, "Do you even have a single bloodline appearance that looks exactly the same feature as i am, No..?" I quickly took a glance on their eyes, I  could really tell how they despise me, my existence and everything. "But, I was a part of this family too." I stated and looked down on the floor and i  feel it and see it in their eyes about how much they hate me.

In the first place, I had no place in this world not even my family. Even though I'm doing my hardest to fulfill their expectations but there will always be a wounds that would never heal. Not even a person could heal.

Ah right, Since when did I ever loved and care by my family? They never accepted me. I never felt any love plus the fact that they always abused me like a toy and I was there, helpless like a little puppy cowering in fear.

I couldn't help myself after all, I'm such a piece of shit as what she told me about. "Mom, just what in a world did i do to you to made you suffer like this, Just why.." I was consumed by an overpowering urge to comprehend, and I couldn't help but wonder, 'Why? Why would she torture me to such incessant agony?'

She didn't give me a response, As i thought why would i ever be wait for her answer, after all. She hates me. Again, as the mood changes she immediately  response to my question with no hesitations, She directly said it infront of me. Those were the last words i heard from her but why i couldn't hear anything, Is it because I'm crying?

As slowly she tried to breath for an air, A misery flashback was recall.

Ah, was everything a dream? Then why is it so dark? My palm was covered in blood when I looked down at it, and there was a lot of bloody waste on the ground. Dare to end a life that has only been marked by difficulty and suffering; maybe this is just the way things are, full of enmity..

The continuous ticking of the clock echoed throughout the space as I continued to ponder on my existence; with each passing second, it tightened its hold around me. Every breath I took was a struggle since the pain was so severe and suffocating. I chuckled bitterly as I cast doubt on the existence of skies. Why, "Perhaps if such a realm really did exist, couldn't I glimpse it with my own eyes, even in the depths of my despair?"

The pain, it seared through me, an agonizing ache that refused to subside. I found myself lost, adrift in a sea of uncertainty, unable to recall where I truly belonged.  "Maybe in hell, would do?"

Everyone knows that a part of them changed that they don't know. A part of them that suddenly drove them into a complete opposite version of herself.

As she finally able to recall last of her memory.

"YOU KILLED HIM. AND I JUST WISH THAT IT WAS YOU." was one of my Mother's last word in front of me that time.

Coughing out with a blood, My heart is slowly beating and i could feel it. It feels like I'm hallucinating. A blurry and dark vision, It's spinning all around and there were tiny creatures flying surrounded around me.

I wonder if what does my real mother doing? What does she look like. Do i look like her as well, What was her voice?

If only i could bring back time, I would totally do. A part of a timeline and a chance where i could i know myself, more..

Those were her last words before she ran out of breath. But maybe a god has granted her wish to lived again.