Will It Hurt

Afraid

I'm afraid

I'm tired

I'm tired of being afraid

I'm afraid of losing the ones I love 

I can't bear to lose anyone else again

This pain of fear is tearing me apart

I'm afraid of letting go

I'm afraid of being alone

Being unloved

Being an outcast

Being bullied

Every thought of this feels like 

a battle of me trying to make the 

ones I love happy instead of myself

Every breathe I take feels like a war of

trust, loved, and happiness

Where am I in this 

When am I gonna get mine

I don't think my fake smiles, joy, 

love, and support will last

I feel like I'm losing everything

I'm losing to my fears

Losing to my emotions

I tired of pretending to be okay

Saying that nothing is wrong

I'm tired of trying to hiding behind

this fearful mask

I'm tired of letting others in and them

 leaving me out

I'm afraid of feeling hurt again without

an actual cure

I afraid of being broken like my torn up heart

I afraid of losing the ability to love and trust again

I want to be cured again

Be cured by the bright sun and ocean waves

But until then I'm spelled,cured, by the darkness

The darkness of scared sad shadows, like me