Adopted By Him.(Sequel To Hearts, Sparkles, And Him)

Chapter 4: Small Talk Should Help It.

Michael's Pov

When We Got Home, I Showed The Girls Their Room. "This Is The Best Room Ever!" Melissa Said. "Glad To Hear." I Said. I Walked Into My Room And Sat Down On My Bed. "Hey." I Heard Alan's Voice. "Hey." I Said. "Are You Okay?" He Asked Me. "Yeah, I Guess." I Said. Truth, I Wasn't Okay. "Why Do You Blame Yourself For Your Mother's Death?" He Asked Me. "I Just Don't Really Know. I've Lived My Whole Life With Her, Well, Not My Whole Life. She Was Like The Mother I've Never Had. I Just Really Miss Her." I Said. "I Do To, But I Don't Blame Myself For Her Death. And You Shouldn't. You Weren't Even There When She Died. So, Why Is It That You Blame Yourself?" He Asked. "I Just Think That Because I Wasn't There To Save Her It's My Fault. I Would've Stopped But I Couldn't Stop Blaming Myself, So I Started(And Still Do) To Cut Myself. I Feel Really Bad That You've Lost The Most Important Thing To You." I Said. "She's Not The Only Thing Important To Me." He Said. "Really? Who Else?" I Asked. "You Are. I've Always Thought You Were The Second Most Important Thing To Me. Me And Her Couldn't Have Children, So When Joseph Let Us Become Your Foster Parents, We Both Swore On Our Lives That You Wouldn't Get Hurt. You Were The Most Important Thing To Us. We Wanted To Make Sure You Had Whatever You Needed, Now Look At You. Your A Singer And A Model. Your Mother Would Be Proud If She Saw You Now. She Wouldn't Be Proud To See You Give Up So Easily, So You Shouldn't Be Saying It Was All Your Fault. You Should Be Able To Be Strong, That's What She Wanted. Her Last Words Were 'I Want Michael To Be Strong And Reach His Dreams.'" He Said. "So She Knew I Was Going To Blame Myself?" I Asked. "Of Course She Did. She Was Your Mother, She Always Cared About You." He Said. "So, She Wants Me To Stop Mourning And Focus On My Dreams?" I Asked. "Of Course, She Wanted To See You Amount To Great Things." He Said. "She Died When I Was 16. She Didn't Live Long Enough To See Me Amount To Great Things And See Me Complete My Dreams." I Said. "She Did She You." He Said. "But She's Dead, How Could She Have Seen Me Do All The Things I've Wanted To?" I Asked. "She's Right Here." He Said, Pointing Towards My Heart. "And She's Been There All Along." He Added. "So, I Need To Stop Focusing On Her Death And Start Focusing On My Children And Dreams?" I Asked. "Yep. I'm Going To Go Make Dinner." He Said, Walking Out Of My Room. She's Known This Whole Time! I Thought About What My Dad Said. Maybe He's Right. I'm Focusing Too Much On Her Death, I Need To Focus On Right Now. "Daddy, Are You Okay?" Olive Asked Me. "Yeah, I'm Fine, I Think I Owe The Jacksons An Apology. They Were Just Worried About Me. Now, Let's Get Ready For Dinner." I Said.