Chapter 1
Austin left about almost a year ago. Ever since he left everything has change, Casey started to hang out with me all the time. My brother moved out with Evelyn and Natalie. Elizabeth and me basically ignore each other. I stopped going to school and became home schooled. I couldn't take going to school, and my parents had no trust in me anymore. My parents said I could go back to school once I show that I have their trust back. Yes I was pregnant but I'm not anymore.
One, because I gave birth to it.
Two, I don't know I just needed to make a point. I had my baby in August. He was 6 pounds and 4 ounces. Yeah... He was small. He's name is Carter dallas Y/l/n. He has Dallas because it's named after a city in Texas and carter because, it was Austin's middle name He has Austin's eyes, every time I see them it reminds me of all of our memories. Carter is four months old and very healthy. He loves animals especially anything he can touch.
Right now we are getting ready for Christmas, Casey is coming over to make cookies with me while my parents are Christmas shopping. Elizabeth was upstairs doing "homework" Carter was in his swing sleeping in the living room. I decided to turn on the television and watch E! TV. As I was watching Austin's new song called say something. At first I couldn't watch it but I have to admit it was great seeing him, the song was really catchy. There was a knock on the door, I turned the tv off and got up to answer the door.
Me: hey come in " Casey smiles and walks in. She holds up the cookie dough and shakes it. I laugh and walk into the kitchen . Casey followed right behind me.
Casey: where is Carter at thoe?" She whispers and puts the dough down.
Me: he is in the living room sleeping, how did you not see him?" I laugh and pre heated the oven. We started making shaping the cookies into little trees. We ad fun playing around with them and some how got in a cookie dough fight! Once we were done, Carter woke up and cried. I grabbed him and bounced him.
Me: hi baby boy, did you wake up from your nap? " Carter calmed down, and played with my hair. I take him into the kitchen where Casey is cleaning.
Casey: Give me him!" She cleans her hands and runs to me. She grabs Carter and plays with him. I cleaned up the kitchen and waited for the cookies to be done. Carter started to get fussy with Casey. Because he gets bore easily or hungry. So, I grabbed Carter and made him a bottle. I cradled him in my hands and fed him. He started getting really tired which is weird, I just gave the child a nap like thirty minutes ago. He ended up falling asleep before finishing up his bottle and I laid him down in his crib. His crib is upstairs where George's room used to be. I took the baby monitor and turned it on. Me and Casey decorated the cookies we made and put on how the grinch stole Christmas. In the middle of the movie Casey pauses it.
Casey: you know what I have been wondering about?" I look at her wanting her to continue. I get more comfortable knowing this will be more interesting topic.
Me:go on"
Casey: do you miss Austin?" Nobody really talks about him to me anymore. I know everybody still talks about him but, they always act like I'm depressed or something. Casey, treats me different she treats me normal.
Me: sometimes but, I just try to ignore that feeling so I just distract myself" I hugged my self and tried to hold back the tears. When I was five months pregnant I texted Austin telling him I couldn't take it anymore. He called me a few minutes after that text and begged me to stay with him. I sent back the promise ring he gave me but, Austin sent it back with a letter.
Promises are forever and I said even if he didn't want to be with me, the ring is yours and I will always love you ~Austin.
It broke my heart reading that, I hated to know that Austin still loves me and I had broke that amazing guys life. The reason I broke it off was because Austin was getting so big and I didn't want to get in his way also, I needed to begin my life again.
Casey: You never told him, huh did you ever think that maybe he needs to know about Carter " I sighed knowing that one day Carter would be asking for his dad.
Me: yeah but he would come back and ruin his career just to be with us and I won't let him do that just because of Carter." She nodes and resumes the movie. I sat there trying to pay attention but, my mind was on the boy named Austin.
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