Austin's p.o.v
Everything has changed this past year. I got a record deal, recorded a few songs, and I'm heading off to tour with taylor. Sure everything seems amazing but in reality i miss everybody in La. Especially YN I never stopped thinking about her she's everything i need and want but out of nowhere she stopped talking to me. Maybe she couldn't deal with the long distance? I know I love her and some how I WILL get her back even though she may not want me.
I decided to go back to La for a week, before I start touring with Taylor. The guys were coming with me too, they got along with my friends too well expect for YN. Whatever they'll need to understand that I love her and we will be together forever. We broader the plane and the guys were unsure about it.
Alex: bro... are you sure that this is a good idea maybe she stopped talking to you for a reason" he says as the plane begins to fly.
Me: yeah I'm sure and if she doesn't want to see me at least I can look around La maybe perform a little." Alex nodes. They don't think it's a good idea to go, she used you Austin they would say to me. I can't just act like it's not bothering me I have to see her. Though the whole plane ride I couldn't think of possible out comes.
1. She's happy and excited to see me.
2. She wants nothing to do with me.
3. No longer living in LA
4. She found somebody else.
Once we got off the plane, it was around 6:00 pm and we grabbed food. Then afterwards went to the hotel. Relaxed but I couldn't all I wanted to do was see YN. I wanted to see her perfect smile, oh and listen to her sarcasm. Gosh I can't wait to see her. The guys convinced me to rest a bit and then in the morning, we would do what I had planned.
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YNs p.o.v
So carter has been fussy and I seriously need a break or another me.
I haven't got any sleep for the last three weeks. Then during the day, carter only wants me to hold him. I was watching Evelyn today and she was sick. So I had two fussy babies and with little sleep. Some how I got both of them to fall asleep. During that I had a tiny nap but it was interpreted by knocking. I ran to get it. As I opened it I was shocked to see austin. There he was standing there with white roses, and a teddy bear.
Austin: wow YN you look great" liar I looked basically dead.
Me: thanks you look nice too." I say. Austin tries to come in but I stop him. His face changed from happy to confused.
Austin: YN let me in please..." I shake my head.
Me; I can't austin, I have been able to move on and you come back, austin you need to know that I am done and you should be too"
Austin: no you can't move on, we're suppose to love each other YN look me in the eyes and say you moved on come on say it!" I didn't say anything, he smiled and walked in.
M eee: if your gonna be here then you have to be quiet I'm babysitting"
Aus: OK sur" he looks around and sits on the couch. " so how have you been lately?"
Me : I've been good just staying up late studying like usual." I lied to him the second time in the last five minutes. Carter woke up and began to cry. I quickly get up and walk up stairs. Austin followed right behind me, I wished I hadn't broke it off but, it's for the best. I walked into Carters room and cradled him.
Aust: wow your still good with kids, you now around a year ago all you did was babysit your niece. did they have another kid?" Another lie? I stared at Carter, hoping he'll go to sleep before Austin could see him. I love Austin it's just that he would give up everything for him and me. I just can't let that happen.
Me: so I hear your gonna go touring with Taylor swift"
Aust: yeah but -"
Me : That must be amazing, oh I would love to do that one day go on tour but, for now I'm stuck here " I looked down at Carter, he was everything Austin. If Austin goes on tour hopefully he will forget me and move on find some pop star who will be willing to go do things I could never do. Carter wiggled in my arms wanting to play i motioned out the door and Austin walked back down the stairs. We went down to the living room and I put him in his play pin.
Aust: you know maybe she might let you be my co - opening act you have the most amazing voice" I decided singing wasn't for me . now all I focus on Is my son and finishing school. I still sing but as a career I thought not. People thought it was stupid that I never pursued it. I sat on the couch opposite of Carter.
Me: no Austin... I just can't sorry" he looked confused.
Austin: what why?" He seemed out of it. I looked at the clock trying to find ways out of this conversation. My parents should be home any minute which means Austin really needs to leave. How am I supposed to make him leave. Carter began to get fussy wanting me to hold him. I picked him up trying to avoid Austin.
Me: you should really leave Austin " it hurt saying this but, forever will this be the best way. Austin looked at me and all those feelings came back and the memories did too. Like the first time we kissed.
Or, when I showed him, my tree house.
Or, when he left. I wanted to cry but I didn't. Austin slowly got up. He looked at me and gave me a sad smile. I got up to show him the door, Carter out of nowhere starts to cry. Austin picked him up and rocked him to sleep. Carter usually takes forever to put to sleep.
Austin: where do I put him?" Without thinking I answered
Me: Oh I will take him up to his room." Austin stares at me confused. I take Carter from him. Austin tries to say something but the opened. My mom walked in and saw him, she doesnt really like austin anymore. She gave him the dirtest look ever. Austin noticed and walked out.
Mom: did you tell him?" I shook my head and took Carter upstairs. I sat on my bed after putting him in his bed, my phone went off, and I had to,check it.
Austin: so we need to talk. Tomorrow at 6 OK be ready.
I replied back and went back downstairs. My mom kept talking, and talking about the right thing and honestly I think I know what,the "right" thing is.
Me: I'll tell him okay? He never knew about carter and maybe it's finally time." My mom stared at me disappointed while I walked away into my room. I haven't talked to Justin in a while but I needed to talk to him. He's like another brother to me. So I called him
Justin: okay something is up what's wrong" I laid on my bed trying to figure out what to say.
Me: well Austin is in town and I don't know if I should tell him." Justin sighs and I could hear him roll over.
Justin: I told you, didn't I? Look i know it's hard and but he needs to know. That's his kid! Imagine 10 years from now your kid will be asking for his dad and what are you going to say? Oops we don't speak of him."
Me: I could, but you're right. I'll meetup with him.
We hung up and I texted Austin and told him I would glady meet up.
