I've been thinking about it a lot these past couple of weeks. I have only told two people about it and I decided why not tell you guys and clear my mind?
R.I.P SUSAN MARTIN'S
APRIL 22,1997-FEBRUARY 11,2009
Ok, so I knew this girl in the fifth grade named Susan Martin's. She had black hair but she would always dye it dark Burgundy. She had light green/hazel eyes and soft white skin and beautiful red lips.
Ok, so it all started in the beginning of fifth grade. Susan and I had all our classes together and we were best friends and sit across from each other. Then in the middle of the first semester I started having feelings for her and so did she, so we decided to become boyfriend and girlfriend. She was also my first girlfriend.
We stayed together happily for days, which turned into weeks, and then later on a month until something happened. I started having feelings for another girl named Natalie, we started talking and we kissed. I didn't want Susan to know because at that time I was stupid and wanted to keep both girls for myself. And at that time it worked, later on, a new girl from school named Maria came into class one day and we started talking. And the same thing happened with me and her, we kissed and I told her not to tell anyone and she promised she wouldn't.
So I cheated on Susan twice and she never knew until one of my best friends named Chris told her about me cheating and she got really sad, she didn't get mad that much but really depressed and sad to the point where she looked dead and weak of all the crying.
That same day, which was a Friday, she told me to meet her at her house because she wanted to talk to me. So I went to her house and we talked for hours, she told me that she wasn't mad at me for cheating on her but she was hurt and sad a lot and that I should always remember to never treat any girl like that and to always give her respect and love and trust. She also told me how girls felt about every situation and to always listen and comfort them and to never make a girl feel bad about themselves. And when she was telling me all this it really affected me because I truly saw that she meant everything she was saying and I didn't want to hurt any girl ever again.
After we finished talking she told me she will always love me and be here with me forever and I said I would always love her too. The next day me and my mom were in the car driving home when we see an ambulance and police investigator's in front of Susan's house. We get out of the car and me, being the one who loves to see what the big fuss is follows one investigator inside Susan's room. The next thing I saw was Susan hanging from her closet on her jump rope, by that point I was panicking and crying on the floor and my mom had to take me outside because I was crying to much and yelling why she did that to herself.
After days of that accident I wouldn't eat for months or go to school. I wouldn't even get out of my room. I loved her a lot and the words she told me that to never hurt a girl and to treat them with respect and right.
I didn't eat anything for months and got crazy and couldn't live with myself. Until I realized that she said she would always love me and be with me forever and I finally got the courage to be strong and continue with life like how she would want me to.
It's been almost 7 or 8 years since that accident and even though it happened a long time ago, I still hear her voice sometimes when I wake up, or I still get scared to open my closet even though I know she won't be in there I still have the image of her in her closet and that's why I don't use my closet.
And that's the life story about Susan and I and I just wanted to share it with you guys because it's a big part of my life.
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