STAYING STRONG- Fighting for my dreams

2AM

It's 2AM and I can't sleep. I am listening 1989 from Taylor Swift on reapet.  My head is almost spinning. There are a lot of things I'm thinking right now: school, exams, love, life, etc.

I'm feeling different things at the same. I'm terrified and confident, sad and happy,  angry and in peace with myself.

Am I crazy?

Maybe.

Am I going to stop working for my dreams?

Absolutely not.

I feel like I'm living in a horror movie.

So confused but keep moving forward, because I have no choice.

Listening to "All you had to do was stay" I realised that I find myself in the story of the song. There has been a lot of dreams broken, broken hearts, and constant suffering. All until I realised that it's my choice to make a difference in my life. I can stay and hope that everything will change or I can stand up and change myself something.

So that goes to advice nr2: Don't stay on your couch and complain about yourself, start doing something with your life. Live it at it's full intensity, accept changes, meet new people but let those that don't want to stay in your life go. Take everything like another experience and learn something from it.

I try everyday to be better, to change something . This is keeping me up and happy. It's the only thing that helps me to let go to the people that one day meant something for me. It hurts every time I think of that beautiful moments. It hurts to know that you need to keep moving forward to survive. But at the same time I think that time will heal everything, like always.
I have people in my life that will stay in my life forever. Persons that are always there for me and most important love me as I am.
But I feel that somethig is missing.
I hope that one day I will find that something and he will stay by my side forever.
I dream of pure love, funny love, true love.
Maybe it's not just a dream , maybe I will be as happy as I dream of. And it will make me better and better, it will raise me and calm me.
Is it fiction or reality?

Xoxo, Rocks