Wish Of A Shooting Star

8

" I didn't wanna do it- I didn't have a choice! "

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Calm waves lightly rock the wooden boat back and forth. A soft breeze sweeps by, making the heads of the trees dance with life. It could have been a relaxing scene if there wasn't a heavy feeling of dread surrounding the boat. All the remaining examinees on the boat were quite silent as they all waited their turn to be called out. Each one had a frown on their face, each one had thoughts buzzing in their minds.
Of course the ideas differ from each person.

Gon thought heavily about getting Hisoka's badge. Killua's mind was buzzing on ideas on what to do when he's already gotten his target's badge. Leorio had his brain set on trying to get to his target too..well that is if he doesn't lose sight of her. Kurapika had thought about what he would do in the woods for a while, mostly focused on survival. (Y/n)'s seemed to work the most, as scenarios seem to pile in her head in a heaping stack.

The girl thought heavily about her situation. Different scenes played in her head, each of them were possible deaths or possible moments where she gets hurt. Of course she had to consider the worst, which is why she was thinking about it, but (Y/n) knew that she shouldn't.

"Keep an optimistic mindset", her father used to tell her, "Make sure to think of positives!"

But how could she possibly do that when the chances of her dying here by the hands of a bunch of adults are high?!

(Y/n) takes in a deep breath as she realized that her head is probably too occupied on the idea of death. She was overthinking things again.

In an exam like this, her uncle told her to keep a simple mindset.

"Don't overthink things, child, you know it's bad." Those were his very words, and it echoed in her mind.

The words were easy to understand, but how come they can't stay in her mind.

Shaking her head, (Y/n) looks at her watch to check the time. Shifting her attention to something else usually helps her out whenever she's stuck overthinking something. In the background she could hear numbers being called out. Soon..she'll have to go out there and she would have to fend for herself. Thoughts about fighting appeared in her mind once more, this time the scenarios weren't as horrible.

This was a challenge to see who can fight well..right? If that was the case, then she could probably get by just fine. (Y/n) was somewhat confident in her fighting skills. She just needs to warm up before she actually gets ready for her fight. In order for her to have that confidence, she needs to get fiery, get mad, or at least have something motivating her to fight. Her match before, the one with the prisoner, that one was fueled by her desire to make her friend's proud.

But what will fuel her confidence for this round.

The topic her thoughts were focused on had changed as that question appeared in her mind. Tilting her head to the side, (Y/n) had ideas spring in her head. One of them was the most relevant to her.

The hunter license. She had to get through this phase to get that hunter license.

It was the key to everything of course. With that license she hoped to find her father, with that license she could finally prove to her stupid auntie that she can actually find her dad and she can save him! The license has many benefits and she wished to help her uncle who took care of her.

As pleasant ideas and hopeful thoughts appeared in her mind, (Y/n) began to bear a smile. It was a smile that sure did show that she was feeling happier than her old troubled self earlier. Her eyes find themselves staring at the forest in front of her. A small hint of fear nestled in her chest as the thought of immediately getting attacked appeared in her mind. The girl shakes her head, trying to push away the dreadful ideas of her brain to the very back wall.