I want him to be mine

Girl bye

Justin's P.O.V.

I haven't been able to stop thinking about Alex. I haven't talked to Alex in a week. He's tried to text me and he even stopped by my house a few times, but I've ignored him. I can't look at him and be in the same place as him without thinking of us together as a couple or our lips touching, and how that would feel. I miss him a lot, but I just can't see him without hurting because I know he doesn't feel the same way. *ding* I look over as I hear my phone go off. It's Alex. He's sent me probably the 100th text this week.

From Alex💞- hey, I miss you. Did I do something wrong? If I did I'm sorry. Please respond, I just wanna hang out.

I want to respond, but I don't know how. What do I say? Do I lie and make up an excuse as to why I haven't talked to him all week or do I tell him the truth and confess my feelings for him?

To Alex💞- hey, sorry I haven't talked to you all week, I've been grounded. We can hang out soon though.

Why did I lie? I should just tell him the truth, but what if he hates me afterwards. I'd be ruining a friendship that's been going strong since kindergarten. I can't just throw my friendship away with Alex just to see if he likes me back. I'd rather be friends with him for the rest of my life with these hidden feelings, than have these feelings and no friendship. My thoughts get interrupted by my phone going off again.
It's Alex

From Alex💞- can we hangout tomorrow?

What should I say? I really want to see him, but it hurts too much.

From Alex💞- I have to tell you something.

What does he have to tell me? What if he wants to tell me he has feelings for me? The last time we saw each other is when his sister interrupted us, well maybe it was nothing, but I could of sworn if she hadn't walked in we would've kissed. I have to see him now cause I need to know what he wants to tell me.

To Alex💞- yeah we can hangout tomorrow<3

From Alex💞- ok great, can't wait to see you.

From Alex💞- why'd you get grounded?

Oh shit, what do I say? I didn't think this through. I need to come up with a random excuse.

To Alex💞- oh you know just stupid stuff. My moms boyfriend thought I stole his money, but he really just spent it on his fucking drugs.

I mean I didn't lie that did happen, just he didn't ground me, he beat me.

From Alex💞- I'm sorry that happened Justin. If you want tomorrow when we hangout we can just chill at my house and watch your favorite movie. I'll even make you nachos.

I don't know how he can make me so happy with just simple things. Alex has always been there for me when I needed someone.

To Alex💞- don't be sorry, it's not your fault. I'm okay and yeah I'd like that. Thank you lex. <3

From Alex💞- you're welcome justy <3

Damn it's pretty late. 3:27am. I should go to bed.

To Alex💞- I'm gonna go to bed it's pretty late, see you tomorrow. Is 2pm good?

From Alex💞- yeah that's perfect, goodnight justy❤️

To Alex💞- goodnight lex❤️

I get up out of bed to cut my light off, so I can get some sleep for tomorrow. I hope I can keep my cool without making it obvious I like him. *ding* I look at my phone and notice that Rose texted me.

From Rose🥴- hey baby😘 my parents are gone. You wanna come over?

I just ignore her text. I really don't want to deal with her right now. I've been ignoring her all week too. My phone dings 3 more times because of Rose.

From Rose🥴- babe?

From Rose🥴- are you seriously going to ignore me all week?

From Rose🥴- you literally are the worst boyfriend ever. I'm so done, text me when you're ready to show me the attention I deserve🖕🏻

Thank god, she'll finally leave me alone. Does this mean we're over? I hope it does, so that'll be one less thing on my plate I won't have to worry about. I can focus on Alex more without her getting so angry. *ding*

From Rose🥴- just so you know you better not take that as a free pass to sleep around with other girls. We're not broken up we're just on a break. I deserve attention. You deserve nothing.

To Rose🥴- bring me all my stuff tomorrow at 12pm and I'll give you back your stuff. We're over. I can't keep dating someone so controlling and manipulative. You bring me down and insult my friends. You treat Alex like shit and I'm over it. Don't text me again. Goodnight. If you're not here with my stuff by 12pm tomorrow, your things will be burned. I have stuff to do tomorrow, so don't be late. Bye.

That felt good. I'm glad I'm done with her. I have more time for me. I can actually hangout with friends without being told it's wrong. Alex will be happy about this and so will everyone else.

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Justinfofo- just broke up with Rose.
Everyone- YAY

Now that is all over I can finally get some sleep. I close my eyes and drift off to sleep.