𝐒𝐎𝐌𝐄𝐃𝐀𝐘 | ᵐᵃʳᵏʳᵉⁿˎˊ˗

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"mark!"

"mark where are you!?"

donghyuck almost cheered in happiness when he heard renjun's
distant yelling in the halls

mark flinched when he heard the small voice calling for him
he wondered what renjun would think when he saw him and donghyuck alone in the classroom

"What is it haechan?
and hurry up, renjun is looking for m-"

donghyuck pressed his lips onto mark's
he hated himself for doing this, but it was for the best

for his former best friend
and for mark

"Mark, I-I realized that I was wrong for letting you go

he looked mark straight in the eyes as he lied.
the eyes he once loved looking at

"Would you be mine again?"

mark's breath hitched.

this is was what he wanted to hear, of course it was.

but
the small uncomfortable feeling in his gut
the tightness in his chest wasn't what he thought he would feel with the day he had been longing for

mark also looked into haechan's doe eyes

and before he knew it he was kissing haechan again

the feeling in his chest and gut all gone

replaced by a light and fuzzy feeling like he wasn't just feeling bad seconds ago

"Yes, the answer is always yes,
I'll always be yours."

a small whimper was heard from the entrance of the classroom

mark's and donghyuck's heads immediately snapped to where the sound came from

both witnessing renjun with a hand to his mouth, muffling his cried.

donghyuck's heart broke at the chinese who watched as mark lovingly hold donghyuck like the world was in his hands

"why does it hurt so much?"

renjun began; mark's eyes also beginning to water

"i knew you never loved me,
i knew you were just using me to get donghyuck back.
but even so, it still hurts..."

"i knew you were never mine and yet
here i am, sobbing like an idiot.."

haechan pushed mark off himself
as he watched renjun endlessly rant on

"donghyuck did you purposely do this?"
"renjun you knew?"

he looked at both boys exasperatedly looking for answers

renjun looked at mark painfully as the older boy looked at both boys
waiting for one to speak

"mark, do you really think i'm stupid?
did you really think i'm that much of an idiot!?"

"n-no renjun i-"

haechan stared at the older in disbelief
"Don't you dare try lying to him!"
"Mark i never thought you'd do something as low as this!"

Mark looked at the floor, unable to face either boys

"donghyuck you unexpectedly broke off with me!
We could have talked this out, you could have openly admitted you fell out of love, this could've been avoided!"

donghyuck scoffed looking at mark suddenly making excuses
"This is my fucking fault now!?"

mark and donghyuck started arguing, a sobbing renjun long forgotten

knowing he was, renjun ran away from the classroom.
unable handle the immense pain in his chest.

he felt like he couldn't breathe,
and his eyes felt like they were going to fall out

so he ran and ran
letting the tears fall freely, dismissing every weirded out stare he got thrown at him

he hated himself for being so gullible
he hated himself for wanting this stupid someday

because he now knew that mark would never love him back
no matter how many days, months, or years renjun could spend with mark

mark would never feel the same way
and he was so stupid in never realizing that

so he went home, stumbling over himself as he climbed up the stairs
if he was going to continue on being this stupid, he didn't want to live anymore

so he stumbled to his bathroom, and dug around his cabinet

maybe in another life
maybe in his dreams

he'll get his happy ending with mark someday