Sumire •|Nakahara Chuuya|•

Author's Note: The End

Yes, that's right.
Everything that your character felt and said she was, was false.

Your character was lying to him/herself.

I know it's frustrating, and when I tell you why I ended it that way I feel like it's going to be even more frustrating.

Lmao, how do I even say that I was experimenting for my original books..?

Oh drat, I already said it.

Nowhere near writing one yet lmao. Still haven't done the plotting thingy.

I bet 500 pesos, I'll stray away from the original plot the same way I did with this book.

I tried writing tanka, two tankas each ending, and I feel I made it too literal.
Also, I felt like I didn't get along with the Mary Sue vibes the main character was giving off.

So I was like, what if behind all these strength, she's actually really weak?

Dark past? Not weak enough, she can redeem herself in a way it would be really easy for me to write.

Dead parents? Too typical. Not saying I hate it though.

Vengeance? I could make her kill Mori. But then that would make everything a disaster and I want to start writing my Kuroo x Reader fanfiction.

Oh yeah, that's Haikyuu.

And I am not known to make good endings.

I mean, it's kinda considered a good ending...the ones where she actually lived..

But that's the dilemma that I actually experience almost every time I watch cartoons and stuff.

Like Monsters Inc. . With all the power coming from laughter and joy, what would happen to those scary looking creatures who made a living with scaring kids? They're going to lose their jobs.

For me, the definition of a good ending is when the protagonist actually gets the good shit without getting everything else messed up.

Like for me, when you get a good ending, it's like getting the diamonds from the desert temple without stepping on the pressure plate.

If you did manage to get the diamonds, but then you step on the pressure plate and you wreck yourself, for me that's not a good ending. That's bad-esque.

I just invented a new word. I'll be like you someday, Shakespeare.

Just to let you know, this is the full picture of the endings.

*Morphs into a hot teacher*

*Sneezes and turns into the female version of real life H.P Lovecraft (minus the racism)*

Ending one is basically the one where she actually dies.

For my other friends (who don't write except for I_DEFY_THEE, try to check out his sci-fi though he's still pretty new though he didn't comment on this), this ain't no good ending.

And yeah, it doesn't really seem like a good ending.

But then if you imagine yourself in her shoes and then you think about just how much shit she's been lying about, it does seem like a good ending. Because she's liberated.

But then maybe it's just me.

Ending Two is when Chuuya saves her.

Imagine sleeping next to someone that you love, knowing that you lied your way to his heart.

Yeah..

Ending Three is when Dazai saves her.

This is your closest thing to a good ending. And it's mostly because it's so...open.

I wrote the tankas in a way that it was supposed to portray that she was worshipping him like he was the Messiah of her life.

You can make it that Dazai does nothing but love her like a normal human would, and give her a new beginning.

The dark one that I thought of this is...

He actually realizes how much she loves him, and takes advantage of it.
I know. Dark. And very fitting for Dazai's still-in-there dark side.

Lmao, anyway it's the end. If you haven't checked out Futatabi Ningen, you can see it on my profile UwU.

My upcoming fanfiction won't be BSD but a Haikyuu fanfiction.

Details will be here some other time lol.

Stay safe!

P.S By the way, I probs won't change the character lying and all cause somehow I can relate and I love it.

Edit: I just realized how much I ramble in my Author's Notes.