【Resentment】 ↬ Hwang Hyunjin (Stray Kids)

◂ ❚ Resentment ❚ ▸

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What doesn't kill you...

Disappoints me.

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"Don't ever forget me...please," I remembered whispering as tears appeared on the rims of my eyes.

My mother was everything to me, yet here we are...separated. She was taken to a rehabilitation center where she was going to get "treatment", but honestly, I didn't see how that will play out. She's beyond recovery; why can't you just leave her be?! Why can't you just leave us be?! Why is the world so unfair?!

That night, I remember huddling myself up in the corner of my room with my drunkard of a father throwing glass bottles on the living room television. I still have the sound of glass turning into shards imprinted in my head. I couldn't stand being under the same roof as him, so I went homeless for a while. I still went to school as normal and I cover up any evidence that I wasn't under adult supervision. Skinny as I already was, that wasn't much of a problem. Teachers would stop by, then and there to ask how it was going with my family...since you know...they found out about my mother and father.

Things went very well until these new students transferred over to my middle school. I hated my ten-year-old life, I just wish that I can travel back in time and change what happened during that year. I could've stood up to those idiotic morons, I could've made a name for myself...for my mum, but no. Every night, I would seek shelter, just to cry myself to sleep. I cried due to the physical pain and embarrassment, but also the swelling disappointment, aching my head because I've lost everything that meant to me, all I had left was a reputation at school, but that slipped out of my grip as soon as everything in my life started falling apart. I was a good student, a responsible one until those creatures came. They broke me down, bit by bit. The point where they pulled my last nerve was when they told everybody at school that I was homeless, which was true, but they didn't know anything about me. So, mostly all of my friends left me, leaving me with... nobody... there was almost nobody I could lean on, except for Jeongin.

He was a year below me and he was the closest person to a brother for me. Every time during lunch, he would give me this toothy grin and demand that I spill everything. How it's going on with shelter, how I got my supply of food, classes, everything basically. He'd sit by me and listen to me. That's when I know that he would be the person I would take a bullet for.

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Anyways, enough about with my depressing back story, though that was just half of it. I'm Hwang Hyunjin and I'm fifteen-years-old, attending Neptune Academy.

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I would be bullied by some of my teachers as well. Get physically pushed around, extra assignments, doing others homework, staying after school to clean up the entire classroom. It begins as a continuous, living nightmare, but soon afterward, it became a normal routine. To go meet the expected teacher for the day, clean up, go back to where I settled for the week, wake up, eat oak barks for breakfast, and then school, then it's the endless cycle of torture again. It drove me nuts for a couple of days, but I manage.

"I'll manage. I can do this. Do this for mother's sake, Hyunjin. She does not allow any weakness to be shown. Remember what she said. Stay strong and show them that you aren't what you think they are. One day, one day, you'll show them what you're capable of. Thank them for making you a better person than you already are right now."