My Wattpad Love One Shot: Jerkpid's Heart

He is Shane Mason. He is not one to be ditched, for he is the one who ditches people.

At least he thought so.

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That's right. I am Shane Mason. I am the number one player in my school. It's up to you if you're going to take the word "player" as an athlete, or "player" as in a jerk, tool, douchebag, or whatever. I don't really care.

Girls go gaga over me; I'm not sure if some guys also do, we never know. They say I'm a flirt, but... Yeah I am one. I've got nothing to deny anymore.

Girls would almost risk their lives just to be with me for one night or two. I don't fall in love easily, not until.... Not until Julie Ann Jones came into my life. Eventually, I fell in love with her.

Stupid love, it is. 

I don't paticularly know what had hit me that day, it was stronger than anything I've felt. Even stronger than a Storm. It's what you call LOVE. I saw something in Julie that I've never seen in any other girls. I've seen.... Something special.

Until her "Prince Charming", which I think is gay named Evan, came to her life. I became nothng to her. Well, I never had been something to her so I should be fine. I guess it was all my fault. Maybe if I had acted like a good boy even before, she could have had fallen for me. Maybe right now, she would be here with me in the damp cold night. Maybe right now I'm the one hugging her.

Now, Shane Mason has been hurt. Thrown away... Ditched. 

Funny how love can change you, and hurt you. And funny how it can change the way you feel. You never know what you could feel next. 

~Flash Back~

(The setting is where Jules and Evan were talking. Chapter 30, page 4)

I was sitting alone in the dark. Trying to forget how Jules' face brightened up when she saw Evan standing right in front of her. How did he make Jules happy with just one look? How did he do all these madness? Why cannot I do that for Jules?

Oh well, maybe because I was jerk. A stupid jerk. Maybe I can't make anyone I love fall in love with me. Or maybe I just need to put a layer of eyeliner around my eyes? Or self harm myself? Or copy Evan's face?

No, because I was a coward. I was too coward to fall in love.

The wind blew harder and harder. I could see sparks flying around, escorting the lonely body sitting in the front of the lake. I tried to control my tears, I never cried my whole life. But the pain inside my heart was just unbearable.

I picked a stone and threw it on the river, so cliche. I wanted to scream but I cannot. I opened my mouth but there was no sound coming out from it. 

If I could only tell my heart to stop loving Jules, I fucking would.

And then happy birthday to me, I saw two shadows walking nearer onto the lakeside. I quickly hid behind a bush. I knew it was Jules and Evan.

Evan started with some kind of drama, telling Jules everything about his life. Like what the hell?  My life  was more miserable than his'.... Well no. 

And there goes this Jules trying to comfort him, saying every cuddly words she could ever think of. She wrapped her arms around Evan's, and my heart shrank in my chest. And then I could hear the his voice shaking, I bet he was already in tears. And then in a while, I could hear Jules voice, unsteady and shaky too. After a while, they started screaming and arguing about something. Well atleast it sounded like one.