HER PSYCHOTIC HUSBAND

Chapter 39 -The couple in trouble

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The only way to stop any pain in your life is to accept the fact that nothing is yours, nothing was yours and nothing will ever be yours. They are worldly attachments given by Allah, belonging to Allah and returning back to Allah.
Ig: halal_thought🌿
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Ayaan's POV :

A painful mourn from her mouth made me flabbergasted for awhile whilst her teary eyes made me realise what I did. I backed off an inch away from her whilst my eyes scanned her face investigating whether I hadn't hurt her jaws by holding it so tight.

I knew I did a grave mistake by speaking what's in my mind, but I just couldn't help it. I didn't realise that I could actually speak my thought which had been troubling me from the day one.

The thought that she's wanting to tear herself away from me made me go crazy. I can't stand watching her distancing herself apart as I can't really afford losing her.

I'm really helpless when it comes to her because I don't have control over myself. My heart yearns for her and it won't listen to me ever, even if I tried to.

I knew I can't control my emotions because no matter how much I tried to suppress them, at last, all I would just want, was her to be mine.

"Look, Rik.." She didn't let me complete my statement as she gestured me to stop to whatever I was trying to explain her. Her index finger pointed towards me was a clear message that she didn't want to hear my explanation anymore.

Her red accusing eyes which stared at me for more than a minute paved a way for me to get things sorted out and hence I attempted to try my luck once again. Sadly, my attempt went in vain as she cut me off in the middle leaving me perplexed.

"You claim that you love me right? Are you sure about it? Is it really true? How could I believe you?" Her rough expression proved that she was adamant to have her answers which made me quite nervous.

"Yeah I do. I love you and I really mean it. Can't you see it's depth through my eyes? Can't you really see them floating in and around my soul? Can't you feel the love which my heart holds for you?"

I don't know what me made me so emotional that I got so touchy with the topic. Meanwhile, she listened everything very carefully to whatever I was adressing but, with a look that she didn't believed a penny single word that she was listening to.

When I put a full stop to my rants, she initiated making my heart throb like a marathon.

"Then what was that with Sana? Was it an infatuation? What will you name them? Love or Lust? Or wait, lemme guess, were you just flirting with her all time? Or Will you now call them a fatal attraction?" A sarcastic look was plastered all over her face which somehow triggered my mind but I remained silent letting her to continue.

"And you find that emotion to last longer than eternity and hence you decided to get engaged your life with hers. You were all happy to marry her but then I arrived in your life like a villain." Her orbs held immense pain whereas her tears spoke volumes none can ever lay a finger on.

"When I became the barrier between you two, you claimed that you loathed me. Therefore, you tortured me for your content and when you had it enough, you suddenly realised that you have fallen for me? Hah, what are you? I can not really understand you. What are you even? A womeniser or A flirt?"

I tightened my jaws glaring at her whilst trying to control my anger with my fingers jamming together in the form of a ball, hurting my palm all along.