You promised

part 4

Harry's pov

I can't believe this is happening right now. She's leaving.
And she's leaving for Toronto, all the way in Canada. I can't believe this.
I'm happy for her, after everything she's been through finally she's happy but I'm gonna miss her so much.

I don't know what to do, should I tell her my feelings for her? No Harry that would be stupid.
Or should I? Ugh I can't even function right now.
I layed on the bed thinking. I looked over at clock on the night table beside my bed it was 3pm, I still have time for our hangout.
I started to fall asleep until someone bursted into my room.
I looked up to see who it was.

"Why the hell aren't you answering your damn phone?!"

Louis.

"It was on mute and stop yelling."

He looked at me and he saw what kind of mess I was. "You okay?" he asked with a confusion.

"I'm fine." I lied
"Stop lying and tell me what's wrong!"
he insisted.
"It's nothing." I told him closing my eyes again.
"It's Ava isn't it?" he asked me looking through my window at Ava's house.
"Like you don't know.."

We stayed in silence for a moment.
"She leaving Louis." I said looking at the ceiling.
"who?" he asked confused. "Wait what?!" he semi yelled.

"She's leaving for Toronto in two weeks. And I don't know what to do. She asked me to hangout today so she can tell me everything. Louis I don't know what to do." I said with no emotion in my voice. Because that's how I was feeling. She's gonna forget me.

"Oh that sucks. Tell her your feelings about her Haz, you have nothing to lose, except your fear bout telling her." he told me .

"I don't know about that, yet. I'm worried. Why if she doesn't feel the same? She's gonna ignore me for two weeks and then she's gonna leave and I'm not gonna see her for entire summer and she's gonna forget about me. I can't just said it out of nowhere."
I said while I stand up.
"I'm gonna lose her Louis and if that happened I don't think I'm gonna be the same."

"Don't even think about it. " he said knowing what I was talking about.
"Past should be forgotten Harry you know what kind of mess you have been. " he said looking at me.

"Yeah I know." I said remembering my past self.

I was a mess. When I was 17, my friend Liam and I went to the bar.
It was my first time ever drinking. I thought it's gonna be nothing until the last cup. We were drinking and singing to the random songs not even knowing the lyrics, just yelling.
I was a kid, not knowing anything and anyone, just trying to get in so I can be
"Cool".
It was all fun until somebody put drug in my drink. I was feeling dizzy and everything was blurry until I passed out on the floor. I woke up next day with a huge headache.
I couldn't remember anything from that night until Liam told me what exactly happened. I was shocked.
Was I that stupid. Well, yeah.

"You can't let that happen again Haz, you're gonna hurt yourself and her too." he said worried.
"I won't, I promise.." I said looking through the window seeing Ava in her room dancing and jumping all over the place. It made me happy seeing her happy. But it's even worse because she don't know that.

Authors note:

Hi again! Okay this was hella long, sorry again. I hope you like it and please stay safe and wash your hands! <3