Stigma

Today is the day,
I felt a bit different than usual,
Chin up,
I'm a different person,
Just like you said,
I'm going through changes,
The changes I made,
I tell you,
All the words of pain,
That stabbed me inside,
I know, it's too painful,
It's pain to hear,
But pal, it's not my fault,
Are you okay?
After letting those words inside you!

I didn't mean to hurt,
With my words,
But pal, this is the pain I went through,
I endured it,
Can't you just endure some words?

It caused you trouble,
You don't feel good,
I knew it from the start,
I was reluctant,
It was a part of me,
It's still a part of me,
The advice of forgetting it was effective,
But losing it,
Thought I will lose myself,
But I will struggle,
Because we gon' change.

I knew all those words,
Must have hurt,
Like those swords,
But believe me,
All those swords leached me,
Deep inside,
It was painful to speak,
With little audacity,
I spoke,
You encouraged me,
You looked fine after listening to it,
Thought my job was done,
Telling you,
Letting those words out of me,
The words which formed my dark side,
The light was bright,
But my shadow dropped,
I'm mysterious, right?
It's the darkness that defines me,
I love being this.

Everyone is different,
But the pain you went through,
Was because of me,
I'm so sorry my sister,
You are calling me a sinner?
So cry,
Please dry my eyes out!
Please punish me,
I can't undo it,
Deep inside,
I thought I will die,
But you saved,
I feel like a sinner,
Please pardon my crimes,
Crime of letting my words out.

I was confused,
Didn't knew what to do,
I can't explode this truth,
To everyone around me,
They may judge me,
But 'they' said,
"In the end, they will judge you,
So what? "
But they are people, I love,
I don't want to be judged by them,
I don't want them to suffer because of me.
They already said,
I'm different from others,
It hit me differently.

I'm so sorry, so sorry,
Even if I hide it,
It can't be erased,
You are the only person,
Who knows my weakness,
I regret it,
I think I was out of my mind,
But anyway, I won't mind,
I hope, you will keep it safe,
Safe forever.

I knew,
My words will hurt,
You knew,
My words may hurt,
"Why were you like that to me then?"
I'm sure you will recover,
The feeble you, who recovered,
Punish me for my crime!