The what if's

Dreams or reality

As you begin to feel the tears fall down your cheek you start to feel unloved and unwanted, wondering what did I do wrong ?Why am I in this position to feel betrayed and hurt? I know he loves me maybe there's more to it .
As you begin looking for an explanation you start to realize there no explanation for how he's treating you like you're a nobody but you get lost in your thoughts , it's like a battle .
    Your mind is telling you one thing but your heart telling you something else . You don't know what to choose. Your mind is always right and your heart is just tricking you, but you want your heart to be right . It's like as if the devil was in your heart and God is trying to give you the sign to quit while you still can.
    You start to get up walking to your mirror and staring at yourself trying to figure out if this is even real. You then begin to realize this is real life and it's not a fantasy. You start to look at yourself even more just picturing you and him together, you begin to get this smile on your face and start to remember all the good times . But then realize he's not there, so you look even harder at all your flaws remembering every little thing that is wrong with you and your body. You begin to play some music and try to feel good about yourself but all you can  think about is him and why he's not there .
    What if he's just tired ?What if he's mad at me? What if he's just taking a break? What if he's just trying to let me feel free for a little bit? Does that mean I can see other people? Does it mean I can go out again? Can I party and have fun like old times? Can I have friends who are not afraid to go up to anybody and just dance? There's those what if's again running through your mind.
    As you begin to get out of bed and turn your music off you see his shadow in your room . He begins to come close to you looking dead in your eyes knowing that he's done wrong . He wants to tell you he's sorry but you don't wanna hear it, so he begins to get closer to you and grabbing your hand . He tells you to put on some slow music and asks to dance with you. You haven't seen or heard from him since the last argument you had with him, so you say yes . As you begin to slowly dance you start to feel warm again you start to feel more like at home, more like yourself . You start to put your head down on him slowly . He starts to grab your waist he knows your every weak spot. He knows what makes you feel comfortable, he knows you spiritually. You begin to to not only feel comfortable but the heat between you two, so you slowly move your head .
    As you begin to move your head he looks at you and whispers "I love you," as he try's to finish the sentence you lean in for a kiss . As you begin feeling his soft lips on yours, you start to remember how bomb the sex was .You start to remember how he took your virginity, how he took it slow upon you . You begin to realize you love him because he was such a good person at heart. He slowly begins to go farther down touching your body, you begin to start getting wet . You don't know whether to stop or keep going .As he begins you decide to keep it going after you keep it going you eventually end up in the bed, while you taking your shirt and watching him take off his . You begin to look at him while he take his shirt off remembering how fine he is naked. He begins to unclip your bra while you stare at him . He's put you in the bed laying with your back against the bed, unbuckling your pants, slowly pulling your pants off, and began to slide your panties to the side. His memory coming to him again, remembering how nice, beautifully pink, and how tight you are . He then begins to play with you clique with it while sucking on your boobs. You realize how much you missed him doing that.
You later on flip the script and turn him over you put his hands on your ass cheeks while you start to kiss his body softly . You remembering how good he smells and licking all over his tattoos. You start to remember he's your man , and he knows what your body wants .You began to to start going down on him even lower making him remember how good you are in bed . You began to tease him, you start licking the side of the dick to make him want more, you began to play with the tip and slowly going farther down, and began to look up while he stares at you calling you by your name . You realize he finna cum, and you don't know whether to swallow or spit it out, but that's your man so you swallow anyway. He starts to grip your hair making you go faster to the beat of the music . 
    After you just get done sucking his dick,you wonder if he's still in the mood to have sex . He looks at you and smile , you looking at him slowly leaning in for a hug . You hug him but he grabs your ass cheeks again, but he throws you around on the bed and goes to your night stand and grabs the cuffs he bought but never used , he turns you around telling you to get right because you've been bad lately .He slowly cuffs your hands tightly but not to tight, it's just right. He begins to bend you over and as soon as he puts the tip in you began to moan . He's going slow because he know you don't like it rough, and start to pound your pussy while he speeds up the paste. You then start to moan calling him daddy.