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Space. Chelsea

"Text you! Text you!" I cannot believe that just happened and now I'm yelling at a teddy bear. Maybe it's just me but almost making out with a girl then walking away like you have something better to do is not okay.
*Ring* Oh great, now he's calling me too.
"Hey beautiful." Damn he has a sexy voice.
"So you weren't dying. Why in the name did you leave like that?"
"I couldn't go through it again."
"Go through... What exactly?"
"Falling in love. It hurts. You fall and fall until your heart gets broken." Holy shit I was not expecting that.
"I... I..." That's a first, speechless.
"Did I just render you speechless?"
"Come over. You don't have to, but I want you to.
"I don't know if I should, maybe we should just try to forget about that dare. Maybe then-"
"What the hell! Now you admit that he dare was worth something. You son of a-"
"Hey, I never said it wasn't worth something. To me it was worth the world. I'm sorry that you got that impression, babe. Ill be over in ten."
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He lied. He was over in five minutes, not ten. How he got here so fast I will never know. Now we are siting on my bed starring at each other.
"So, what were you saying before? I believe had to do with falling?" He giggles, a nervous giggle. I didn't think that guys did that.
"I was saying that when you're falling you don't realize how much it'll hurt when you reach the bottom." Why does he have to get so serious. I lean until our faces are barely an inch apart.
"Don't, please." I almost obey, almost being the key word. When our lips touch I can almost see the fireworks. He wraps his arms around my waist and I think he might actually be okay with it. Then he groans and pushes me away.
"I can't.... I can't-"
" You can't what? Fall in love?"
"Please, I just need space."
"Okay." I get up and leave, forget that we were in my room. I go to the kitchen realizing my hunger. I make some pizza and force him to eat. Surprised he didn't leave when I walked out of the room. We just sat there an ate, no talking, just eating. When I was done he picked up everything and started cleaning.
"I can do that, you can go watch tv or leave or go I my room, if you want.."
"No, I'm fine. I can do this"
"Fine."
I go up to my room put tank top and shorts on. I'm just pulling my shorts on when he walks in.
"Sorry door was open."
"It's fine your to emotional to tap this anyway."
Offend he shoots back "since when?"
" for weeks!"
He comes up to me and kisses me hard, grabs my waist pushes me to the bed kissing my neck and my chest. Rubs my shoulders pulls my legs around him. I think to myself 'is he really going to?' As he pulls my shirt and bra off with one pull. I think 'this is really happening' I pull his shirt off he pupils my pants off realizing I forgot panties. He says " where you hoping?" I grin and say "sometimes I sleep without them" I take his pants off. He grabs my boob and kisses me so hard rubbing my nipple. This feels good. He goes down and sucks my nipples and runs my thigh. He feels my vagina and says " god baby your wet" I don't say anything. He sticks it in. It is magnificent. When we are done. I put a T-shirt on and shorts and lay on the floor. Remembering he said space and then I start to cry...