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Fire and Ice. Kade

I don't remember falling asleep, I don't remember anything after eating pizza and cleaning her kitchen. i realize I'm on her bed. I look around to see that she's sleeping on the floor. At least she listened to my last request. Space.
I can't say that I regret letting her kiss me because I don't. I'm just afraid, of what I'm not sure.
"I'm sorry Chelsea." I get up, thinking that I should leave before she wakes.
"What was that. Why are you sorry?" She yawns, still groggy from sleep. So much for the leaving plan.
I shake my head and sit down on the floor next to her.
"I shouldn't have slept here. Aren't your parents worried?" Now she shakes her head and sits up so our eyes are at the same height.
"They're out of town for the weekend." Well isn't that fantastic. "You can stay I you want... Unless you want to-" I lean in and kiss her, why I don't know. When our lips meet it's like fire and ice. Two things that shouldn't touch, yet at the same time they are perfect for each other. Fire to keep things interesting, Ice to tame the burning. I pull away slowly and take a deep breath.
"Thank you." She says, her voice shaking.
"For?" Not that I regret it. I just don't think she should thank me. We are both falling when we shouldn't be. She leans in and gives me a quick kiss.
"For that." I can't help it; I grin at her words.
"I'm not sure I should stay.." I get up and walk out her door, she follows.
"You might need help finding the door." She walks me through her living room and practically pushes me down a flight of stairs. Did she want me to leave? Of course she does. She doesn't love me. Why would she? Why would anyone. I fight down tears, refusing to cry in front of Chelsea.
She opens the door.
"Will I be seeing you again?" I can't force out an answer. I'm choking on words that will never be said, not now. I barley manage a shrug as I leave. Half way down her drive way I turn, a mistake. She is crying in her door way. Crying over me. Me. It takes all of my will power to walk away, tears finally making there way down my face. I'm a block away and I stop. Should I turn around? No I have to keep going. I can't go back. She can't love me. Who would? Another block, I'm almost to my house. I'm no one special, just your average teenage boy.
"Kade?" My dad waited up for me, how sweet. "Are you okay? You have a little something on your face. Oh. Why-"
"Rather not talk about it."
"Go back and tell her how you feel."
"Who says it's about a girl?"
"Well, is it a guy."
"Wow. Just wow." He gives me a look. A look that I know all to well. Follow your heart. Well, that's kind of hard todo considering that I left it at Chelsea's house.
I turn around and run. I run as fast as I can until I reach her drive way. What do I say? I decide not to say anything. I sit and let the tears roll down.
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"Did I fall asleep" I ask out loud to know one. Taking rocks off my face is always fun in the morning... Must've cried my self to sleep... Her parents might be on there way home should I knock? Should I talk to her? I walk up to the door, lift my hand I knock... Three times. I wait 5 minutes. I knock again, once. Wait, I don't hear anything as I turn around to walk away. I hear the door open. I turn around to see Chelsea men's T-shirt sweatpants and hair in a bun. To be frank she looks gorgeous. I jog back to the door and she looks at me. I get chocked up I'm not sure what to say. So I say-
"I'm sorry I got you involved in my craziness I'm sorry I made you cry I'm so sorry I may have confused you. Okay? (raisin my voice now) I'm sorry. I'm a hot mess nobody will love me! You don't even love me, and you shouldn't! Okay?! You just need to forget about me... Please..."
She asks " did you sleep in my parking lot?"
"Yes...."
"Okay. You want me to forget about you fine (starts balling) you know I thought you were different that maybe I might be good enough for someone but I'm not.. Or maybe your just not good enough for yourself! (Screaming through tears) GOD DAMN IT KADE!" She slams the door.
I stand there for a few minutes she opens the door a crack to say " Now I need "space" you have 2 minutes to get off my lawn or I call the cops."
I complete shock I turn around and walk away. Forgetting I ran here I spend ten minutes looking for my truck. I finally realize I came on foot turn around, and start walking. I just keep walking, an walking. I find my car, get in, and drive. I finally remember what happened last night. Why he was so mad. I fucked up. I screech to a stop. And scream FUCK!