THE CLOUDY DAYS

Darkness!

Here I am standing by my window
I’ve seen the clouds 🌥 forming
My cloudy days are here again
I can’t help buh feel eery as the walls r closing in
My visions are getting blurred from darkness
I don’t wanna be alone in the darkness

Am back in this cave life has made
I can feel my breath leaving
Am claustrophobic…
Am all alone in the darkness and its emptiness
Am bleeding out cause have crawled and crawled and clawed my way
But no light in this tunnel
With every glimpse of light I see
Am being dragged back from a force I can’t tell

My feet and hands are heavy with unseen chains ⛓
Am sinking deep into to the earth like I a victim of its wrath
Time after time am hearing the clicks of guns and wails
Am trapped in the cage of my mind
Some think am schizo … but I might be psycho

Am lost in the school of my mind
Having classes 👨‍🏫with Dr. Dementia
Am going senile, there’s no denial
Am nailed round after round after round with pain
Have got several invitations from hate cause of this state
Am in the estate of sorrows
I don’t wanna be alone in d darkness

My pride been broken and I can’t fix it
My honour is lost in the dirt have made
Am drowning in a fountain of faults
With no peace hidden in my vaults
Am strained and drained
Constrained with consternation
On a train 🚉 in d darkness of hades
Alone in the darkness… buh I don’t wanna be alone 😔

I actually have no idea why am trapped in this sequence 🌀
I reached for the bottles 🍾 , like it will led to freedom
Buh, here I am waking in prison
Bet I’ll be on tomorrow’s news 📰
The police 🚨 can’t even tell the motive of my actions
Here I am in staggering in cuffs and chains
Blood stains on my shirt
How did I let this happen…?

I had imploded 💥 from my bottled-up hate and bitterness
I had sunken deep and lost myself loathing
I had laid back in reverie of wounds
So I popped them open each day
I had soaked myself in the memories of pain…
When I reached for the bottles 🍾
I had released the demons in my mind
Then I took the keys driven by vengeance
And stepped on the gas of acrimony 🚙 💨

I imploded then I exploded 💥 cause my existence became a toxic reaction
Now they coming for my head
How do I escape this debacle? 🤦🏿‍♂️
Oh I remember…
I wrote my “Suicide Note” 🗒 way back
And it’s time I say bye to nothing & good riddance to life…
Darkness!