I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT YOU MATTER. YEAH, YOUR LIFE MAY BE TERRIBLE RIGHT NOW AND YOU MAY BE IN DOWNRIGHT AGONY, AND IT IS PAINFUL, BUT SO BE IT!!! YOU'RE STILL ALIVE, YOU STILL EXIST, AND YOU'RE HERE. YOUR PAST SELF MIGHT HAVE HAD SOME FORM OF A BETTER LIFE, BUT YOUR FUTURE SELF NEEDS YOU!!! CHANGE CAN STILL HAPPEN!!!
GO DRINK WATER. RIGHT NOW. OR SOME BEVERAGE THAT DOES NOT! CONTAIN!! CAFFEINE!!! GO CLOSE YOUR EYES FOR A MOMENT. REST. STOP! BEING! SO! HARD! ON! YOURSELF! MISTAKES HAPPEN! LET THEM! GROW FROM THEM! YOUR MISERY AND HATE FOR THE WORLD IS RECIPROCATED UPON BY MILLIONS, SO THRIVE ON IT!!! BURY YOURSELF IN THE LOVE OF OTHERS- BE IT THROUGH A STORY, ART FORM, A SCIENCE, OR A SONG!!! YOU MAY NOT BE ABLE TO FEEL ANY POSITIVE EMOTIONS, BUT THAT'S OKAY!!! THE WORLD HAS MORE THAN ENOUGH TO SHARE, AND THAT'S AMAZING!!!
THE WORLD NEEDS YOU. SPECIFICALLY YOU. BE YOU! IF YOU CAN'T BE YOU, CHANGE YOUR ENVIRONMENT! BUT WHETHER YOU CAN OR CAN'T, STAY STRONG!!! BECAUSE ALTHOUGH YOU MAY FEEL MISERABLE AND ALONE, YOU. ARE. NOT.
STATISTICALLY SPEAKING, THERE IS AT LEAST ONE PERSON IN EXISTENCE WHO WILL MISS YOU. YOU, SPECIFICALLY.
PLEASE DON'T GIVE UP!!! YOUR STRUGGLES ARE NOT MENIAL, WORTHLESS, OR SMALL. THEY ARE HARD, BUT YOU'RE STILL HERE. YOU MAY NOT BE STANDING RIGHT NOW, BUT THAT'S WHAT TIME IS FOR!!! TO HELP YOU GET BACK UP!!!
YOU'RE DOING SPECTACULAR FOR SOMEONE IN YOUR SITUATION!!! OTHERS MAY SAY OTHERWISE, BUT THEY'RE NOT YOU! EVERYONE HAS DIFFERENT LIMITS AND CAPACITIES, AND THAT'S WHAT MAKES EVERYONE UNIQUE!!!
But seriously. Look here, please. Here. Sometimes it feels like the world lost its color. Other times it feels like you're drowning, maybe suffocating. Other times it may feel like you're trapped- chained by the ends of time only to suffer everyday from a routine that is slowly killing you.
But I believe in you. Please, stay. Because that void that is hurting you? It may not ever go away, but its effects will lessen. You'll learn to deal with it, and that will be your new normal. (Never mind the fact that it wont necessarily be normal, by any standards, but the past is an unattainable trap that no one can ever get back again.) I know it's hard. But keep going! You have so much to see and do. They may not exist right now, but they will. You're not alone, okay? You're not. You're a wonderful human being who has struggled but has made it so, so far. The world is cruel and somewhat unbearable, but it has gems hidden sporadically around. I just want you to be around to see it.
Because honestly? I'm glad I did.
