-she wants to die -

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JAKE'S POV :
I was now walking...well, running towards my house with Marylin next to me to go see my mom and my hopefully alive dad, I'm saying this like my dad is dead or something, but like what if indeed something really bad happend to him? I know for sure that I can't handle it, my dad and me were like soulmates and forever will, I was more close to him than I was with my mom, I love both the same but my dad was there, like a brother I never had, he basically taught me everything, how to play football, how to play basketball, how to flirt, how to be nice, anything you could possibly imagine, my dad taught me. If something happens to him, I'm gonna go crazy. My mom too, she loves her husband, I'm glad that my mom and dad were that kind of a couple that almost never fight, especially in front of me, they respected me like I was respecting them, and I was grateful for that. They were there for each other, they were such a nice couple, I can't bare see my mom hurt, she loves him way to much, the same goes for me, I love him way too much.
Ugh I was in deep thoughts that I didn't even realize I was in front of my house door and what caught my attention was that Marylin grabbed my hand and squeezed it tight wihh hers.

MARYLIN'S POV :
We were running, I was looking at Jake here and there and I was wandering what he'd been thinking by now, I hope he knows that everything will be alright. Well I should tell myself the same thing but I couldn't, I knew everything, I knew about his father and his condition, his mom and I are good friends and talk when we find time, and one time I remember her telling me everything about her husband

                    Flashback:

I was sitting in Jake's living room watching a movie with him when his mom came in and turn on the lights and said:

-Jake will you please go to the grocery store and buy some milk and rice, we just run out.?

I was a bit confused, how random to run out so quickly when you were not even in the kitchen, but okay, he replied:

-Mom right now? We are watching something.

-Yes now.

-Fine, Ugh Marylin to you mind?

-Yeah sure I can wait.

-Okay then I'm going mom.

-Thank you son.

He left and as soon as the door closed his mom sat next to me and said:

-Marylin I have something to tell you and you have to promise me that you will not tell this to Jake no matter what.

-Um yeah. I promise what's the matter Mrs.Parkling?

-It's about his dad. He is in a serious condition, well for now he is fine, but things will get worse, he has a very bad brain cancer, it's getting worse and worse by day. I don't know what to do, we are going to the hospital everyday when Jake is at school, and right now he is in his room ready to pass out from his headache and I don't know how to take him to the hospital. I'm really worried that I'm gonna loose him, I mean I know that 80% of people with cancer dies but I don't want his dad to be one of them, he is trying really hard not to show his condition to Jake, you have no idea how hard it is for him to handle every headache when he is around Jake, his headache's are not like ours, when he has a headache, it hits him like a rock on his head, and immediately gets dizzy and ready to fall, and right now it's got worse, he's in big pain upstairs and I want to you to take Jake outside, do anything so that I can get his dad to the hospital, it will take my a bit to prepare his staff cause we are probably gonna sleep there too as it looks, so come back after an hour or so, and if he wonders where are we just say that I told you that we have an important business trip and will come back in few days. Marylin I'm counting on you that you will not say anything to Jake, he will be terrible, he can't take such a big problem, his dad is his everything. They love each other so much, it hurts me to know that he is probably gonna loose his own father, everything right now is hanging from a piece of ribbon. You have to keep him happy this days. You have to make him forget about me and his father, as much as it hurts me right now, I know it's for the best, and I know that everything will one day be alright. If he has you at least then everything will be alright, just take him anywhere, then come back and please stay here with him, and tomorrow go somewhere and have fun. And don't worry about me I'm gonna be fine, I'm gonna to everything to keep him alive, to keep him home and close to his lovely son. Do you promise me that you will not tell him anything until I decide what's gonna be the next step Marylin?

-I'm lost at words right now Mrs.Parkling but I'm gonna do everything for your family's sake, I love everyone of you. I love Jake, you can't imagine how my heart got broken for hearing this words, please be careful and I'm wishing the best for your husband, hoping that he will be strong and goes through this easily without big wounds. What do you want me to do now for you?

-Nothing much just take hi-

-Hey mom I got you the staff.

Jake cut us, damn it, how I'm gonna take him out now? His mom looks at me and whispers: "Shit" I look at her and whisper while Jake puts that grocery in the fridge "go up stairs and prepare to live in gonna do something" And she nodds while getting up and I just play it chill and wait for Jake to come back so that I can distract him so that His mom can leave without him knowing. He came and sit next to me and said

-What were you guys talking about while I was out?

-Nothing much don't worry.

-Okay so let me go to the bathroom really quickly before we continue the movie.

-No.Sit down. I-i have s-somethimg to.....um tell you.

-Okay tell me what is it.?

I was about to start saying anything when I saw his mom walking behind with her husband in her arms, and a bag in her shoulder, tryna be quiet so that Jake would now notice. So this is my time to distract him. I locked my eyes on his and he did the same and my gaze fell to his lips and an idea popped in my mind. I kissed him. Passionate and deep so that he wouldn't reject me. I thought right. I put my arms around his neck and his arms around my waist. At first he hesitated and then he just lean in. I open my eyes to see his mom mumbling a "thank you" and I just closed my eyes again enjoying the moment a bit and once they left I opened my eyes and backed away and said:

-Sorry I didn't want to actually do that.

-Well what did you want to do, and why did you kiss me? And why the fuck i kissed you back?

I laughed at him and hit him jently in the arm and said :

-It's that my hormones you know? The kiss didn't mean nothing okay?

-y-yeahh. I quess. Um one more thing?

-mmh?

-Can you stay the night?

-I was gonna tell you the same thing bro.

-Oh great then. And where my mom go!?

-oh um while you were putting the groceries in the fridge your mom told me something I should tell you after she leaves.

-What is it?

-She will um go to an business trip with your dad and come back in few days.

-Well why she didn't sa anything to me, I was litterly in the kitchen?

-She was in a rush.

-Okay then.

                End of flashback.

That's why i came with him. That's why I brought vodka with us that night, his mom texted me to keep him with me until tomorrow and I did, and today that happend and now I'm terrified about what happend according to his mom texts it was serious so that she would tell her son finally, but I was kind of afraid, what if he finds out that I knew? Ugh we're going through this together. Marylin grab his hand and squeeze it tight. I did it and he looked me before opening the door to his house and...