In Denial [Kou x Mitsuba]

Chapter 5

Kou's POV:

Unfortunately, I went to school the next day. I really wanted to stay home, but Teru wanted me to get out the house, for my own sake. I know that he's worried about me, but I just don't have the energy anymore. When I arrived though, I saw Amane waiting for me by the entrance. He ran over to me and gave me a big hug.
"I'm so sorry about Mitsuba," he said before pulling away, "I wish I could've helped..."
"Its okay, Amane," I said with a small smile, "those texts you sent me made me feel a lot better."
Amane smiled and bowed apologetically, before leaving for class.

I made it to my lesson and sat down in my seat, feeling like crap. I felt everyone's eyes on me. I didn't really care though. I didn't care about anything anymore. The class begun, but I was slipping in and out of consciousness. Well, not really, but rather I was just spacing out or dissociating, I guess. I sort of lost connection with the living world, only for a few minutes. What's strange is that I saw a figure standing by the classroom door. I just stared at it numbly, before snapping out of this 'trance', if you can call it that. When I looked at the door again, the figure was gone. I think these recent events are messing with my head.

When class ended, I packed up my things and sat on the roof to eat. Mitsuba and I always sat here for lunch, snacking, joking, and messing around. As I ate, I just stared off into the distance, looking at the city ahead of me. The view was nice, but it didn't bring me any joy. I remember leaning on the railing with Mitsuba, staring at the same city. In those moments, I enjoyed it. I enjoyed just standing next to him, our shoulders touching and our hands intertwined with one another's. I felt safe and secure in those moments. Suddenly, when I looked down at the school grounds, I saw the same figure, but this time, it was much clearer. Their shape was more defined, they looked like an actual person this time. Unfortunately, I couldn't see much from how high up I was, so I ignored it. It wasn't real anyway, just my brain messing with me.

The bell rang and lessons begun again. I listened to the lecture, but something wasn't right. Whenever I looked in front of me, in Mistuba's seat, there was someone sitting there, fading in and out of existence. One second, you could see them, and another second, you couldn't. I closed my eyes and shook my head, hoping my eyes were just playing tricks on me, and fortunately, the figure disappeared. I don't know what happening to me. Has this got something to do with Mitsuba?

It was the end of school and I was leaving the building. Past the school's entrance, past the gates, past the rows of houses, and past... our meeting spot. Mitsuba and I's meeting spot. I didn't dare look at it anymore, but something inside me demanded that I did. When I did look though, my heart skipped a beat. Standing there was a boy with pink hair tied into a ponytail, a scarf wrapped around his neck, and wearing a cardigan that was way to big for him.

"Mitsuba?"