Because for me you were always a priority , from the first time I saw you..
Actually we had something between us,
We had that chemistry ..
The chemistry that makes me smile everytime I see your brown eyes..
That chemistry that makes me feel happy everytime you touch my hands and kiss them.. and that chemistry that makes me thirsty for your love..
I mean I felt something for you even if I said the opposite..
I don't blame myself for what I did and I don't blame you either ..
Maybe I should blame the situation that made me hurt you ..
But even when you're far , you're still near..
I still feel you..
I accept it when you send me a picture of your food , your cigarettes..
I accept when you send me a post or a meme at 3 am..
Actually I feel happy when you share with me anything you want or when you react for something I did send..
For real..it is somehow difficult to accept.. but I'm not ready to lose you, again, because of my stupidity..
And it is so great to feel you here..
Your presence means a lot..
Even if your presence this way means hurting me,shattering me and leaving me in pieces.. even if your presence means pain.... I accept ..I really do..
Because imagining you far away from me , imagining you holding hand with some other girl ..makes me angry
Imagining you looking at me in a cold way or ignoring .. or even pretending like nothing special was between the two of us makes me feel as a stupid kid that has just lost his mother and they're telling him to forget about her ..to let her in peace..
But I can't.. I can't let you go ..
I can't pretend that I'm not falling for you again every day..
I can't forget your pretty face .. I can't not remembering your touch all day long..
I can't just forget about your Good Mornings and your Good Nights
It's that hard . It's more than that..
And as a reminder, the only person I wanted to talk with about you and how much I need , is you.
