For You

Tract 10: Fantasy

Disclaimer: The title of the fic and each chapter's title are all credited to the Jerry For You producers and of course to Jerry himself.

For you, who love a dream, this chapter is dedicated to you.

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I have never believed a love quote as much as that line Shan Cai said in Meteor Garden II, episode twenty-eight.

'Dreams and love aren't the same after all. Dreams are beautiful, love is the real thing. . .'

Those words were so simple yet so beautifully true.

Dreams are illusions of things made to be perfect as to please the believer and love doesn't always have to be this way. When you look at someone and see nothing but perfection then that wasn't probably love. And when you look at that someone see nothing but a rose-tinted world then that probably wasn't real. Almost like that saying, if it's too good to be true then maybe it isn't true.

And yet. . . There was this man that I swore must have stepped right out of fairytale books. Like those princes in those make-believe children's tales used to make little girls hearts aflutter, this man seemed perfect in everything humanly possible.

Aside from that, he makes me feel so very much.

Sighing, I stared at the stage where Jerry Yan was sitting, readying for his signing session. Oh dearest God, why did you have to make him so unbelievable perfect?

Those eyes of his sparkling with genuine warmth. . . they were making my heart go at an impossibly fast rate. Those charming smiles and those oh-so-deep dimples. . . they never fail to start the fluttering of the butterflies in my stomach. Those pouting lips. . . that straight nose. . . that unmarred skin. . . that great body. . . I don't even think, when as a kid I had ever imagined Prince Charming to be as beautiful.

Neither did I imagine him as endearing. Why Jerry? Why do you have to be so passionate? Be so determined? Why do you have to be so boyish yet be so manly at the same time? So innocent and seductive all at once?

And why oh why, do you have to be so talented? If you weren't so then maybe I and more than 10 million others wouldn't have gone crazy over your role as Dao Ming Si. And that figure is from my country alone. More tens of million must be added in that number if you consider all of your fans which I knew increased yet again in the last few months.

Smiling softly, I put a hand over my cheek. It was very warm but then why wouldn't it be when just minutes ago, Jerry had serenaded us his fans. Though it's been a little more than two months since he finally released his long-awaited solo album, I still get excited every time I hear his songs. And now? After just hearing him sing live, I almost couldn't help myself from crying.

Everything seemed to be moving in slow motion right now. The first person in line to get Jerry's autograph was now walking over to him. . . Just a few more minutes now and it'll be my turn. . .

Oh, the events leading up to this moment were still all too surreal and truthfully I feel everything's just a dream. Just a year and a half ago, my life had been completely ordinary but that was before Meteor Garden came to air in Philippine television. Like the slow-developing love story of Shan Cai, I had come to feel the same thing for the character of Dao Ming Si there. I would have gone to every event Jerry Yan had here in my country if only my father would let me. But alas he never did and even two weeks ago, like all those times before, he had strongly refused to let me go and see Jerry today. Always saying I'll get over him soon, Father said I shouldn't miss out a day in school just because of an infatuation over Jerry.

Infatuation. Obsession. That's what every member of my family calls my interest in Jerry Yan. They say I was slowly and slowly losing contact with reality. It was no longer healthy, these feelings I had for this man. For even if I spend hours in the internet; reading and researching everything about Jerry, I still don't know him. How could I possibly be in love with him then?