That One Show (z.s.)

Thirty Five

Harry started crying hard when Zayn hung up the phone and hopped outside for fresh air. He wanted to call Louis, but he knew it would be a waste of time.

Harry's heart was breaking. He was afraid that Zayn wouldn't keep his promise. He wanted to hug him and he wanted to explain everything to him. But he couldn't even get to him, he had no idea where he was at.

What broke Harry's heart the most was that Zayn didn't even tell him he loved him back.
...
At the restaurant Zayn had finished his cup of coffee and asked for the bill

Margot: "you sure you don't want anything to munch on?"

Zayn: "no I'm fine thanks"

Margot: "are you sure, our pancakes are good!"

Zayn: " I said I'm fine."

Margots eyes opened wide when Zayn raised his voice and she ran off to get the check.

When she game back Zayn felt bad and apologized

Zayn: "I'm sorry it's...it's just it's been a rough morning"

Margot: "it's alright. I hope it gets better"

Zayn: "keep the change by the way"

As Zayn said thank you and good bye to Margot he was standing up and getting ready to head out the door.

He didn't really know what he was gonna do the rest of the day. He just wanted to stay clear of all human contact unless it was really necessary.

He decided to ask the Uber driver to take him to the closest beach or lake. He wanted to sit there and let the wind take him away.

And the Uber driver agreed.
...

Harry was heart broken. His face was pale. His lips quivered. He was scared.

Charlie: "hey mate you look beat. you good?"

Harry managed to put on a small smile

Harry: "yeah just tired"

Harry managed to get checked into his hotel room and get ready for the show without Zayn's much needed company.

Three hours had passed since he'd last spoke to him and he needed to call.

Zayn: "Harry I told you to quit. I'm okay."

Harry: "but I'm not Zayn...did that ever cross your mind"

Zayn: "actually yes, it's all that's been on my mind. It's so hard for me to sit here and not have you holding my hand. Believe me I wanna be with you to. But right now it's just best if we both spend a few hours apart. It's not that long."

Harry: "...I'm just worried."

Zayn: "I know you are. I'm trying to put your mind at ease"

Harry: "I just don't want you to leave me..."

Zayn: "I told you I'm not. What makes you think I will?"

Harry: "you didn't even tell me you loved me back earlier."

Zayn: "Im struggling even getting words out. That doesn't mean anything. My feelings haven't changed Harry."

Harry: "then tell me...so I know. So I can hear you say it."

Zayn: "later okay?"

Harry: "what the fuck did I do to deserve this?"

Zayn: "nothing. it's me. I'll be there tonight. You'll be in my arms. I need time to think of what to say and how to go about this?"

Harry: "go about what? I don't wanna lose you. Don't break up with me."

Zayn: "I will not break up with you. For the last time. You are everything to me Harry. That won't change. Sometimes people need to spend time alone before they can be together."

Harry: "promise me you still love me."

Zayn: "I promise you"

Harry: "I love you baby. I just wanna hear you call me baby again"

Zayn: "I will...just give me time"

Harry: "I'll see you at the hotel later?"

Zayn: "yes"

Harry started crying

Zayn: "what's wrong"

Harry: "everything's wrong Z...I don't have you here to make me feel safe. I wanna fucking die every time I look at myself if the mirror. I feel disgusting."

Zayn: "You're handsome. You don't need me to tell you that."

Harry: "yes I do."

Zayn: "Hugs and kisses from me tonight, I promise."

Harry: "yeah but I won't get my good luck kiss."

Zayn: "it'll be okay, you'll rock it anyways"

Harry: "fuck my life"

Zayn: "no, your life is beautiful. you have everything anyone could ever want."

Harry: "I'm missing one thing...cause I don't have you"

Zayn: "I'm still yours. I'm just catching air."

Harry: "just please stay safe baby."

Zayn: "I'm safe."

Harry: *sigh*

Zayn: "good luck, I'm still your biggest fan"

Harry: "thanks I guess"

Zayn: "quit stressing. I'll see you tonight"

Harry: "I love you"

Zayn: "I know you do"

Harry felt defeated.
...

At the beach Zayn was clearing out all his emotions. At times he felt himself crying, laughing, sometimes even just closing his eyes.

He knew that he didn't wanna give up what he had with Harry because of Louis. The passion they both had was there for each other.

Zayn told Harry he'd see him at the hotel when the show was over. He wasn't lying but, as he collected his thoughts he noticed how hurt Harry was because of this.

Zayn called an Uber and rushed to the nearest flower store.

He picked out a bouquet of 20 red roses for Harry. He knew he was heart broken. He wanted to explain his reasoning.

It was about 6:00 by the time he got out of the flower shop and into the Uber on the way to Harry's show. He was sent backstage into Harry's dressing room.

Harry wasn't in there because he was preparing for the show to start. So Zayn waited, set up his flowers and candles and simply waited.

He formulated what he wanted to say and how he wanted to apologize for leaving. He popped a bottle of champagne to ease his mind, and relaxed until the show was over. When he heard Harry say his thank you's, he knew he'd be coming to join him soon.

10 minutes passed and he heard Harry's familiar voice, although a little sadder, get louder as he approached.