jimin ff

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it's been a week since that last time you actually slept or ate good thing you have been drinking water and eating at least a bite of a ingrain bar it's now time for the show and you are so tired but you can sleep while they do your makeup because there is a camera in here asking me questions "ok y/n good luck and see you out there" the man who was recording me said, I smiled and said "ok see you out there and thanls for taking the time to come and video record me" I say and smile.

once he left I had to change into my attire and leave for the stage. "now we welcome y/n a new idol who has been all the talk lately" once you get up there you dance an into and then sing

after that I dance to different songs with the help of some other females

after I performed and went backstage I collapsed and they went to go get bts backstage, once they were in there they seen me on the floor getting fanned and cooled down "ong y/n!!" jimin says and goes to you but you are barely awake "we need her to get cooled down first and then try and give her water and food" the staff said "omg we should have kept and eye on her more" jimin says "baby it isn't anyones fault but my own ok" I say in a weak voice "y/n why didn't you eat or sleep?" he asks "because I had to prove to army and everyone that I am worthy to be on a stage and worthy of you" I say and they all look at me "you did this because of that?" rm says "yeah and so that I could prove them that I do belong with all of you guys" I say "how long have you been getting hate y/n?"suga asks "for a couple of weeks it started when I daybuted and then got worse after me and jimin announced that we were a couple.

"why didn't you tell any of us?" kookie asks "because I wanted to deal with it myself so I wouldn't look pathetic" I say and they all look at me sad and happy "im so sorry guys and im sorry I lied to you chimmy" I say and then I pass out

once I wake up in still in the dressing room and the boys are still around but im on a couch now and jimin is stroking my hair and humming "chimmy?" I ask and he looks down and smiles "thank god your ok bb, I was worried" he says and everyone goes to me with food and water "ok girly you have to eat everything and drink this ok" jin says "ok, omma I will" I laugh at his protectiveness "dam straight, I am your mom now eat they are about to announce awards and you are nominated for three of them" j-hope says "ok ill eat up and then we can leave" I say "um guys they are announcing the winners now" kookie said "well i'll eat on the way there ok let's get back to our seats" I say and grab a subway sandwich and a water "ok let's go i'll eat the other things when we get back and on our way back ok?" I say and they all nod their heads.

as I get up I stumble a bit and got dizzy "here let me carry you till we get to our spots ok" jimin says and he picks me up and I start to eat so I feel better. once we get back to our seats I notice the other idols looking at me and smiling and I don't know why "they are looking at you because they loved your performance, in fact everyone did it was amazing" he says and he places you down on the chair and sits next to you and so do the members.

"now the award for performance of the year goes to.......y/n!" the host says and I stand up and felt a bit better but still a bit dizzy but I went to go and accept the award "thank you everyone who supported me in becoming who I am today, thank you Bangtan for taking me in and saving me that day, today after I performed I passed out because I let nasty comments get to me and I tried to perfect myself so that I was suitable    for your liking but I ended up hurting my health, even tho you say these nasty things to me they will get to me still I tell you this because there were some mean ones in there but now I realize that I love where im at right now so thank you for helping me realize this" I say and stumble a bit but feel a hand on my back and then I feel more hands.