Is this love?

Chapter one

~Kellin's view ~

It's 3:am and I'm still awake watching dan and Phil. I need sleep, I think. "Okay put down my phone....." I layed, Down and started to think "damn it I have school tomorrow, and I have no friends....whatever. I'm gonna go to sleep.
I wake up and throw my alarm clock across the room "SHUUUUTTT UPPP!" Today is the first day 12th grade, and I know no one. I get in the shower. Next to me is my razor blade. "Should I?" I ask myself... I pick the blade up and I press it into my skin. I loose courage, so I put the blade back before it can do Any damage. I step out of the shower and quickly dry myself off, I slip on some black skinnies and a of mice and men T. I look at my clock, "shit I'm gonna be late!" I run out the door and grab my skateboard. I make it too school without falling.(wow) I look around, everyone smiling and all cuddly with their lover." God I hate preps". I whisper under my breath. I walk through the door, "it's okay just breath...." I say to myself. I already have people staring at me. I run away and try to find my locker. 23-12-45 okay got it, I unlock my locker and start putting my books in there. I look over, I see a guy who looks like me. I smile," he is kinda cute" I say to myself, "what am I saying!? I'm straight!" But I can't take my eyes off of him. He looks over, and smiles. I look away frantically," god I'm such an idiot!" I get my maths book out and I close my locker. " hey" I jump a little. "Sorry, I'm vic" he has on an sleeping with sirens shirt with dark blue skinnes on and a burgundy beanie. " hah it okay you just scared me... And I'm kellin." I was so scared to talk to him " Your gonna mess it up anyways, you always do" I say to myself" "I like your shirt" vic said with a slight smile on him face. "Thanks, and same for you" I said blushing. " so.... Who do you have next block?" Vic asked " uh....Mr. Hawkins." I said shyly. I hated talking to people... I always felt like I was doing something wrong, like I'm gonna freak them out and they will run away. "Really? Me to" vic said smiling. We started to walk to class, we talked the whole way there about random stuff. (mostly bands) I walk into Mr.Hawkins class he said we could sit anywhere, so me and vic sat in the back of the classroom. I couldn't help but to glance over at him." What is going on?" I thought." I mean I'm straight right?" I slump back in my chair. Vic looks over at me, " I know it's a hell hole here" he said nudging me a little. I couldn't help but to smile and blush, "today's gonna be a good day" I thought.
~Vic's Veiw~

I wake up screaming. I sit up on my bed and think. "It's okay vic, it was just a nightmare.." Once I calm down, I walk down stairs and get a glass of water. "It's 5am, school starts in 2hours". I almost start to cry, I hated school. Really. No one understood me, and I was really alone. And to top all that off I am gay. No one likes a gay guy. I walk up to my bedroom and slip into the shower. After I get out of the shower I slip on my SWS shirt, some jeans and my beanie. Okay it's 6:30 I have 30 min to eat. I go downstairs and eat a pop tart and a bagel. Once I Finnish I say goodbye to my parents. I walk out the door and get into my car. I'm blasting of mice and men the whole way there. I park my car and get my book bag from out of the back seat. I start walking to the entrance. I look around at all the people standing around making out and smiling. " god I hate preps. I whisper to myself. I walk through the doors already dreading the day. "01-34-12" I find my locker, I start to put in my combo but I got distracted. I look over about 13 or so lockers away there was a guy who has on a of mice and men T, and some skinnes. " damn he is cute.... But I'm almost positive he is straight" I start to frown but I can't take my eyes off him. I see he look over at me, I panicked so I smiled. He look away pretty fast. " god I'm such an idiot, but maby we can be friends." I gather up courage and walk up to his locker. "Hey" my voice was quite and shakes. He jumped a little, I thought that was adorable. " haha you just scared me a little, and I'm kellin. He started to blush witch made me blush. Come to find we had most of our classes together. Our hands brushed against each other. I think I blushed most of the day, we talked the whole day. He asked me if I wanted to come over and hang out. Of course I said yes. We walked to his house, talking about our life "are your parents gonna mind me coming over"? I asked, I mean I didn't wanna be rude. " dude my parents are never home, my dad lives in Cuba and my mom is usually at work". He looked really depressed about his parents not being around. I grabbed his shoulder and stood in front of him "hey" I look dead into his beautiful blue eyes " it'd okay both my parents left me when I was 8, they left me to my uncle" I almost started to cry right then and there. But I held back my tears " I'm so vic." His voice was helpless " it's okay.. Hey come one let's hurry up to your house I'm freezing my tits off" I smiled, I mean he is pretty cute.