100 Ways to Kill Yourself (Sans x Chara)

Attempt 1

(Chara's POV)

I'm sitting in the back of the class not paying attention to anything the teachers says, I'm just lost in my own thoughts.

'Why couldn't I have just died?'

'They shouldn't have saved me.'

'I'll have to try again today.'

The lunch bell rings, snapping me back to reality. Everyone in the class runs out down to the cafeteria or outside. 

Not me though.

I stay right where I am.

It's not like I don't have friends or anything, or I'm starving myself, (another good plan though) I was just told I have to stay in the classroom until someone picks me up.

Maybe it's my punishment for trying to kill myself.

"SAD OTHER HUMAN!! THE GREAT PAPYRUS HAS COME TO PICK YOU UP!" The tall skeleton proclaims as he waltzes into the room.

"heh." Sans, the complete opposite of his brother, chuckles. "let's go kiddo."

I stand up, already used to this process. Yesterday Alphys got me. The day before it was Undyne. The day before that it was Azzy and Frisk.

As we walk, Sans and Papyrus talk about things I couldn't care less about, so I just zone it out and stare at the ground. 

"Hold on a second," I mutter while I start turning around. "I forgot my lunch box." 

"i'll come with ya, kid. paps you can go ahead without us." Sans goes along with me.

"OK THEN! NYEH!" He struts off without a second thought, leaving Sans and Chara to go back through the empty halls.

We walk in silence not looking at each other at all until I decide to break it.

"Why do you always follow me wherever I go," I state it more than I question it.

We both stop dead in our tracks as his eyesockets turn pitch black. We didn't dare look at each other, just at the ground. The cold, hard ground that you can fall and smash your skull on.

"we're all worried about ya, and tori and asgore can't stop thinking of if it happened again," He explains. "that's why we have this routine. if we leave you alone, even once, you might try that again." 

I don't care to reply, I don't even bother to look back. I just walk ahead to my classroom and grabs my lunch box so we can go

-Time Skip

School ends with nothing interesting to note. Just the same day, with the same routine. That's my life.

I went home with Azzy and mom and went straight to my room the instant I stepped into the house. It was the only place I could have privacy. The only place I could be alone and free.

I collapse onto my bed, tightly hugging my pillow. For all they know, I could suffocate myself with this. For all they know, I could slit my throat with the scissors at my desk. For all they know, I could have so many pills waiting to be swallowed letting me go into an endless sleep. For all they know, I could hang myself with my shoelaces.

But I don't. 

Why not? I dunno, I guess they would get sad.

None of them know why I jumped off the stage. No one will ever know. I can't let them find out.

"Somethings wrong here.." I sigh and blink a few times but can't figure it out. I don't know what's wrong, I just know its something... And I can't understand what.