Nobody is my name

Humanity

            Human, what a complex word. Five letters that literally can mean a million of universes. Some humans mean love, some humans mean hatred. Human the most difficult thing to understand. Even I dont get how many people doesn't care about the human that is besides them; while others will give their life for them without thinking it twice, and others care but they don't do anything, they know but they dont know anything. Some say humans are animals, while others think that we are the most important being in the whole world. Humans the ones that create happiness, joy, love, confidence, bonds, but are the ones that cause hatred, sorrow, sadness, and death. Humans what a big word and we can continue.

The brain of a human being is the one that causes all of the things I have already said! Oh! But remember we don't want to go to psicologist, cause what will people say about us? Did Psicologist asked the same when they went to study? Or did they thought they wanted to study so that they can help people like you? Many blame God because of all the things that are happening, many blame humanity, many blame the government, and many blame themselves.

What doesn't a human do? What would they do without questions? What would they do without money? What would they do without rules? What would they do without nature? What does the human word mean?  I just imagine how powerful can a human be, they dont need superpowers because with just a few words they can change the course of a life for good or for bad! But weak is the human that goes through those changes and decisions because of other persons, they say. I think weak is the human that doesn't make decisions! Oh, human if you just stayed quiet for a minute and rethink all the things you want to say before you say them. But that doesn't happen cause we dont care about the emotions of others; only a few care about others, and I can count them with the fingers in my hand.

Selfishness has taken control of our world, but how? Well every human is a completely new and different world of their own. Many are blind, some are deaf, and some cannot even move, but they have the purest and most amazing spirit a human can have, while the person's that are physically healthy, have the worst and most weak  spirits of them all.

Humans want to create the biggest and most powerful weapon that can exist, but what they dont know is that they all have the worst weapon of all, the tongue! Aren't we all the same? We all have a head, a brain, hair, ears, eyes, nose, mouth, neck, body, heart, lungs, kidney, stomach, legs, feet, toes, blood, spirit, and life. HUMAN why don't you live your life like you are suppose to, don't ask, but how? Cause we all know how life works. We are the one's that complicate all the things that are near, we have even destroyed nature, just cause we all want to live happy and nice, well let me tell you something, while you do that, you are destroying yourself!

Oh!!! How humans love to do stuff that they like for a minute or ten, and then spent days having a fight with their brain cause they all knew that what they did was erroneous, but that's the way we prefer to live our lives. Like broken vessels, trying to fix stuff we can't, ignoring all the help that we can receive, cause remember, what will people say about me?

We are never satisfied with what we have, oh! what a mistake. Living your life for others and not for you. Every day life and humanity get's worst, but I am saying that and I am not making any change to it, and I already said the phrase that is not letting us change "Every day life and humanity get's worst". A world-wide change starts with only one person, just how it has always been, with only one human. I think I am getting the concept right now. Everything that I have written it's all because of this word:

D isorder
E exposed
C ause
I  have
S omehow
I  ignore the
O objective of
N eeding help

I can come to the conclusion that I have always lived this life because of my decision, and the world is like this because of decisions! I have the power to control my decisions and make good ones, but everything starts with the decision of changing. But I, like all the humans in the world have a different fight we all must win.   I think of thoughts like my worst enemy, but even so without them I do not live. So many thoughts come when I am going to take the decision of changing my life, they all come running to me, it feels like the whole world is going to attack me somehow. And this is the fight were most of the warriors are defeated( but isn't that defeat somehow feel like home, and comfortable, and...)

Oh! Human a single word with 5 letters and what a universe it can mean. Human a beautiful and destructive machine, what use are you giving to yourself?

Answer all the questions one by one, and I will get the key to the gate of freedom. Thoughts are thoughts, decisions are decisions, love is love, shame is shame, self-control is self-control, but to have the opportunity of getting up every morning and live a life just for nothing, that makes no sense.

Well, it's getting late and my head hurt, like my soul. It's a difficult process, but not an impossible one. Just focus and love yourself more and more. Just be yourself. The color of your life doesn't need to be painted by other people. Smile more, and dont be ashamed of who you really are!!!