*DISCONTINUED* Depression with a side of anxiety (disabled, trans deku AU)

Prolauge

!Trigger warning!

Eating disorders

Depression

Self harm

Mentions of R*pe

Gayness

Slurs

Cussing

Suicide mentions and attempts

Midoriya's pov

5 years old

'I wish mamma would stop making me where dresses' 

"Izumi please stop trying to fight me over wearing a dress," Mama asked me and I burst into tears

"M-Mamma I don't want to wear it, please don't make me. Please," I say in-between sobs

"Why don't you want to wear the dress, it's so pretty?" Mama questioned me.

"Because I'm n-not a girl M-mama... I'm a boy" I say immediately regretting telling Mama

"Izumi, why didn't you tell me sooner" Mama tells me causing me to smile. A week later I had picked out my new name... Izuku

11 years old

I get home from a long day of school my mom greets me with a smile. She tells me to sit down and I do without complaining. Then I saw her...

"Izuku meet your baby sister Saki" Mama tells me. I'm in awe. I finally got a sibling

"Oh my god Mama, are you serious! She is soo cute. I promise to protect and love her no matter what" I say with the biggest grin on my face.

-Time skip brought to you by my laziness-

It has been the best 2 weeks of my life. Every minute I could I spent it with Saki. She became my life. Nothing could possibly cause me to be sad, but then the unthinkable happened. I was called up to the principles office...

"I'm sorry Izuku but there was an incident at your Mom's work and she didn't make it" the principal told me this and my world crashed.

My mind started racing. 'What will happen to Saki. Will I have to take care of her. Will they take her away.' These thoughts raced through my mind until I got to Saki's daycare.

-Time skip brought to you by my gay ass-

"Hello there sir, who are you picking up today? And aren't you a little young to have a kid?" The daycare worker asked me when I came up to the desk

"Saki Midoriya, and she is my little sister not my kid," I tell the worker. The worker quickly picks Saki up and hands her to me. I leave almost immediately after and walk home. Kacchan stares at me as he walks home but I couldn't care more, as long as I has Saki everything was fine, I thought.

13 years old

"beep beep beep beep" the alarm clock screamed in my ear at 4 am. I quickly get my school uniform out and went to the bathroom to shower. Before I could get in the shower the urge to cut became too strong to ignore. I open the medicine cabinet and got out my razor blade.

'One for being useless'

-cut-

'One for living'

-cut-

'One for being fat'

-cut-

This went on until I had 35 cuts on each arm. Not deep but they defiantly weren't shallow either. I quickly bandaged my arm after showering and then I went to the kitchen to make breakfast for Saki and me.

I quickly finished making breakfast, eggs and toast, and made Saki a plate. I go and wake her up, get her dressed, then I brought her to the table and gave her her food and we started to eat. By the time they finished eating it was 6:30 and we had to go so I wasn't late. I dropped her off and made my way to school aka hell on earth.